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Cry @ 8:42 PM

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Cry @ 8:28 PM

Everything is way different now .
too much things happen recently ,
i dontknow wtffff my mother is thinking mans .
accusing me is what you've always done for me ,
can you let me choose things myself .
yah , you found a cigarette box in my bag but
no cigarette what . is just a stupid box to make exlink card holder .
blame me all you want , you dont wanna care me thats your own fking problem .
i rather i dont have any parents alrights .
Dont bother me anymore ,
I'm on my own for now .

SBF ' s has too much things going on too .
making all of us fall apart ,
i dontknow why that 2 pples is damn want to cause the damn thing to
become like that mans .
lying is what that person did ,
hai daoo emily what can you gain .
if you want pple to stand at your side ,
please think properly what have you done .
i just realize ,
even though you veh in good terms with that particular person .
In the end , that person will still betray you & backstab you .
hope everythings is fine soon .
tonights might not be working ,
damn tired . my back ache like siaooo mans .

EMILY ,
dont worry too much .
nothing'll be wrong .

XUETING ,
kuku , learn your lesson .
dont treat pple too good , theres a limit .
although you dont blame that person .
you must think also what that person do that cause you like this .
ahahah , my standard line ,
Got me mah (:

i dont feel happy when i know
that you're not with her anymore .
You must cherish her de ehs .
why must you be so flirt everytime .
what did that girl gave you that make you
so engrossed with her & you just hack care
my AKL just like that . dont you think
that you're too much . she lovees you also ehs ,
i know you wouldn't read this de .
cos you already hated me .
love you turns out disappointments to me .
you won't come back de ,
& you even deleted my number .
i dontknow what to say ,
you called me with your hse phone at 071208 .
you claim that you like dont know me .
what can i do , is okay le .
The minute i heard your voice ,
i dont have too much feeling that i wanna see you .

I've been loving you & giving in to you ,
but when it has come to a stage
that i've feel a burden inside for half a year .
i can only lovee you in silent without anything good for me .
I couldnt carry on anymore ....

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Cry @ 2:13 PM

YOYOs.
damn long didnt post liaoo .
hais , stilll got bridging in sch , study o lvl thing.
ohmytu , is super difficult laa , i dont even understand .
just feel like sleeping in class mans :o
tml is the class chalet , ! not veh sure whether i'm going anot .
no mood for fun le lorhs .
this morning i just went causeway at about 8am ,
went meet kaiyang take something . wheeeee .
i done wrong again , sighs .

253 DAYS of loving you ,
151 DAYS of waiting for you .
i dontknow what to say ,
i just feel so terrible when i know it .
i really canot imagine you're with another girl .
i only know my heart is damn fking pain .
i can't stop feeling so sad ;
why you dontknow how much i love you ,
why you dontknow how much i have done for you ,
& i can't even compare to a damn outside girl .
i dont want , i dont want you got gf !
please , tell me is not true !
tell me she don't exist .
am i that bad ?
am i really that bad comparing to her !
i do so much for you , just for you leis .
i love you more than she do , why she gets you ,
i can't .
i'm leaving all the pain away ,
i wanna leave this world so that i wont be missing you .
can someone just give me one knife ,
that will be enough .
love you like fcuk , stop all the hurlful word on me !
why you keep using different ways to hurt me ?
do i even count at all ,
you know you're important to me ,
i take you more important than myself .
i hate all this , stop pleaseeeeee !
no matter how hard i try ,
it didnt take any effects at all .
every promise i made before ,
i broke when i saw you .
you tell me what should i do ! you tell me laa !


i want you ! you .. ):
i feel so vulnerable now ,
i know you'll blame me for wanting to do stupid things ,
if i really leaves,
will you be happy if i'm gone ?
you won't have me fan you le ,
you won't heaqr my naggy anymore ,
i'm sorry to let you know i start do that again ,
the moment i think dao you with the girl ,
seriously i can't take it.
i feel life is so meaningless now , no life .
i want a place with peace ,
ileave for good so you will be happy ?
why wouldn't you gave me a chance ,
just one chance will do ):
i'll wait anyways .
please takecare of yourself ,
dont tired yourself , must rest .
dont never talk to me cans ?
i dont want we become strangers le.

last thing , last long with her ):
silent goodbyes ,

i'm sorry .

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Cry @ 11:20 AM

YOYOs .
i'm damn fking angry now narhs ,
i really dontknow what you want lorhs .
maybe you hate me or whatsoever narhs .
why do you have to scold me ?! do you know your this word
hurts me alot . i know you want me to forget you ,
but do you know how hard isit .
i can't forget ni de hao , i just can't .
why do you have to treat me like this ?
everything also my fault , scold me all you want bah .
if is other guys scold me nvm ,
i know is play play de . but is you leis !did
you dont even know how i feel & you just treat me like that .
what did i do to deserve this ?
i where got flirt all this , what did i do wrong !
wo ai de ren shi ni , i hate it .
i wanna hate you , but i can't . i dontknow why narhs .
i know you dont want me contact or find you le ,
i won't anymore .
i won't blame you for scolding me le , because is you.
just feel very unhappy ): i'll carry on waiting
although you hate me . hais , fcuking sad mans .
sighssss , just say me infont of me orhs .
i know you dont dare .
just let it be bahs ...

is not so easy to let go ,
but you keep wanting me to let go .
do you know how is so hard ?
do you know i love you like fcuk ?
do you know you're important to me ?
do you know how much i care about you ?
i hate all this mans .
is you gonna ignore me forever ?
ohmytu , i need you now .
he doesnt seems to care me anymore ,
i dont want it to happen it leis .
i want you back .
because of you ,
i dontknow how to love anyone elsee .
i dont understand at all ,
why am i so sad now ...
awhile treat me hao , awhile jiu treat me so cold .
i just want to know you better again & communicate with you .
how am i gonna communicate with you now .
shi wo de cuo mah ? maybe i shouldn msg or find you le.
make me so disappointed mans ,
hais , i'm seriously concern about you .
somehow , somedays,
i do hope you understand .




no longer gonna contact you ,
goodluck for your exams & takecare of yourself
no matter what okays .
dont give up your studies hors.
boy , you takecare ,
slient goodbyes ):

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Cry @ 6:15 PM

YOYOs !
just went kbox with ODILIA, CHERRIE , TIFFY ,
FARAH , VAL ' , ALENA, WEIDE , RYAN , TERENCE ,
CHAOLIM , JEREMY , NIKO & SAMMY .
that dennis never come , wth .
HAPPY 16TH ADVANCE BIRTHDAY TO ALENA RYAN
& OF COURSEEE LAST ONE IS MEEEEEE !
my on sunday , alena on monday , ryan on wed .
happy kbox-ing today ! so fun ,
we found BY2 de mtv ,
oh my tians , & chaolim was like went high &
shouting in a pervertic way lorhs .
funny sia , then odilia want sabo me hor,
think i dontknow . lalalal.
we sing english song & chinese song ..
farah & niko like sot de , keep "EJECT:.
then can stop our chinese songs ! rarhs ,.
thankiew all for going this KBOX outing !
& this wonderful OUT OF TUNE celebration (:
thankiew tiffanie for her present (:
thankiew hillary & sherman for the present (:
& thankiew chaolim , samuel , weide , terence , jeremy ,ryan
for that present ! i loveee it .
i want tasmaniaaaaa devil ! agggrhhh .
we sing like for so many hrs till 5 !
all no voice le , the bill like hundred plus i think .
eyers , that wei de . dontknow how to sing still
anyhow sin g. didnt know that my tutor "sing that well ".
stupid big gas tutor ! say i small gas .
i loveeessss you guys x33 .
4/4 is the best !

sunday might be going westmall movies
with hillary , zhiyun , linda , xiaoxuan , jiahui
alan , daryl , jevin i think (: idk still got who leis.
maybe junjie i think (: .....
yeah , that day is the day i can watch NC16.
the actual day to be sad .
sian , but they can't watch . lala.
but next time can watch with my partner & odilia le (:
so like that lorh , somebody * horss ,
sunday never go movie with us lorhs,
still say go out with parents .
see the msg , straight away sians diaooooo ):
wanted that person go so much but he maybe not going ,.
sad liaooo laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !
rarhs , no more happpy happpy ):
my bday doesnt seems to be a happy one that day .
but got 4/4 celebration jiu hao le bah .
sighs }: why am i so sad ..
when it doesn matter to me already .
afterall , no longer related .

saddeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed
i want some highness to keep me happy ):
爱你让你过好的生活；
我想做很多让你开心的事 ；
每天能看到你就够了。
nlvl is next tues , whereby now
i'm still thinking abt you .
oh my tians , what am i thinking .
study laaaa LAI SI NING .
chinese need to score A1 or A2 de.
must be persistent .
dont wanna make myself so sad ):

Ai hai shi bu ai .

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Cry @ 6:39 PM

YOYOYO,
anyways, still at art room. shi sians de lorhs.
hmmmmmm, ysd can't finish my blue rose.
aggrhhh, went meet hilary teo & linda at panjang just now.
with aziela too (: SADDED, aahahahha.
that day was likee so funny narhs,
i talk to banjamin kew on the phone then
he suddenly say 'jian she wang you' ,
is like wth lorh, shld be 'zhong she qing you .
everytime say until his chinese so pro, actually very lan one.
he anyhow only norhs, act clever !
he sees this will be like super duper mad lahs.
but is he dont know chinese first ! ahahahahahaha.
funny daoooooo ...

i've made a desicion lerhs.
dont know is correct or wrong .
i know is abit what lah, but no choice.
ermmmm , i'm still missing you (:
my life without you is a terrible mess.
i today keep thinking abt how to get back your feelings.
i dont know what am i suppose to do?
thinking of the memories, heart damn fcuking pain narhs.
i feel like crying le ):

everlasting pain remains ):
i still can't forget the pain, i dontknow why.
wo bu xi guan ai bu daooo ni ..
wo bu xi guan mei you ni ..
wo bu xi guan ni bu zai zhe li ..
wo bu xi guan ni li kai le ..
wo bu xi guan yong bao bu daooo ni ..
wo hai shi bu neng xi guan bi xu fang qi . =(

i'm still waiting you turn back.
i'll continue smiling ..

part of me is dying .

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Cry @ 2:32 PM

perfect song for YOU !

请让我靠近你轻轻对你说
别让我每个夜为你受折磨
多么不容易才默默放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔
我别无选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意

再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否则我怎么肯放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
赐给我你现在幸福的笑容
别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔
请你做选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
然我愿意(心还想着你)

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Cry @ 1:56 PM

yeah ! sians sia. ysd went lan. i tot yueyin they all going work.
in the end, they didnt go, saw vernice&amanda at timah.
saw jianming too. den junjie told me gonna be at tampines !
ass. i tot at panjang lorhs. so far. sigh !den junjie force me go, i dont want
go de lor ); in the 67 bus for 1hr45mins, so damn long uh.
all junjie fault, somemore inside the bus, so many INDIANS .
wth* all veh =.= 害我 inside there, i only girl nia. YUCKS !
finally i found a seat, then the indian keep coming. wt fcuk !
den, i sit beside jj, got someone i noe de lerhs. hehehe*
he talking to lindaa on the fone, dont disturb him, i sleep !
lols ! den i "accidientally" scatch his hand. then got blood, lucky he not angry. ((;
he see this, confirm angry de.
he hit me lorhs. ); ahhah XD so sians at there.
reach there, so lost. 我们迷路了! walk so many blks, ask alot of pple.
still cant find the bloody place, i totally damn hate east side lorhs.
so far )); hais. i sell 3 nia, i want eunice back ! only remain for 1 week. !
hais. luckystar. lols.我被猫吓 3 times lorh. junjie also xia dao.
he ask me touch the cat , i touch then the cat suddenly move, scare me sia.
jj fault. ! hahahah. go home, sit johnathan car, we went buy drinks, ask him buy
vodka for us. we drink, duno why face so red lorhs. den get off the car, junjie
face damn red, we keep laughing, siao sia, macham like drunk. but not. haha.

我爱的人，不是我的爱人。

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Cry @ 12:49 PM

posting here. everytime recently no work, johnathan narhs, no work
hai us no money lorhs. everyday work until everyday damn fking tired norhs.
east side got one girl saw flasher sia. =X ysd also no work, went outside ton. heheh.
went with ODILIA and JUNJIE go town, at first went 儿子 hse. cos wait for
JUNJIE to come, he damn long lor. he went up kaijie hse. den we jiu leave lerhs.
ODILIA also going to reach town lerhs. when me and junjie on the bus,
got one uncle keep using camera and flash flash flash. like taking photos like that.
i 吓到 lorhs. den the flashing light flash infont of me and he like pointing downwards.
scare me sia. JUNJIE also think so tat the uncle abit pervert uh. lols. we called odilia,
she hang our phone lorhs. asshole. * when we reach fareast there, walking to cinerisure.
ODILIA keep calling us to faster. no patient de sia.she alone at "foodcave" eat.
thats what she pronouce for "FOODCOURT" lols. no logic de. den ODILIA want to go fareast.
we pei her go there. she keep saying walked straight. siao de she. ben lai
buying cardigan, in the end not buying. next week den buy. no money now.
keep using pay de money. lols. den we walked until the shops all gonna close lerhs.
we buy bubbletea * (; JUNJIE buy VANILLA MILK TEA, i buy HONEY MILK TEA.
ODILIA buy GREENTEA ! XD JUNJIE drink until say so er xin. he still drank finish.
lame lorhs. in the bus we keep laugh laugh laugh cos ODILIA say the chicken is poking on
the cheebye. ass lorhs she. think so prevert thinking sia. den JUNJIE say we inside the
TUNNEL of odilia's 洞 ！ hahahahah ;p funny lorhs. the hole of hers *
the whole bus filled with our laughter and noises sia, 是丢脸的咯 !!
in the bus got 2 teens keep looking at us and laughing. i keep ask ODILIA
stop laughing, she laugh so loud ! JUNJIE also lorhs. hhehehhs.
me and JUNJIE alight at imm there cos need take 188 frm there cos will alot of pple de.
ODILIA alone in the bus exploring her's HOLE tunnel ! in 188, that 死 JUNJIE
keep hitting my knee. got the scar liaos ah ! den i scatch his hand until all turn red !
hahaahahha. next time ME and JUNJIE gonna explore her tunnel again with HER le !
wah, tml still got choir. sians sia. tired lerhs. got open hse. must sing so many songs );
still got remedial. duno want go mahs. cos later bei mrlee catch hair jiu die lerhs.
i highlight again. hehhehs. HONEY BROWN ! (; that day go sch aldy 6 teacher
says abt my hair. wtf ! go home still tio gan, rather stay outside. sigh. 对我来说，那个家
已经不像家了! i hate to stay at home now. ! have to 受别人的气！thats not my home.


my laughter has turned to an end.
i can't seem to find that exit.
you're gone, far frm me. when is the day gonna come?
忘记他，才能安然度过。这一秒钟的天长地久，深深抱围我。
我没有你想象中那么坚强，我用微笑去伪装，不是吗？
我没有你形容的那么勇敢，我偶尔也会慌。
就让记忆中的爱慢慢烧，我能就逃。
missing your entertaining, always'
i need your entertaining to keeps me awake.
i've turned confuse when i sees you.
you seems busy with alot of things, but i just want to stay by your side.

被保护的慌言。

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Cry @ 7:39 PM