Clutch my fists and bite my lips.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

我要走了，因为太爱你。
Tell me not to do it , just tell me .
okay , i'm emoing again in school .
telling meself if i fell asleep , never wake up again .
maybe forgetting about him for one minute ,
when i'm awake , I would be whenever he was .
The perfect memories is all never found again ,
I can make things happen , i dont have to wait for them to
hapen to me .

i'm not afraid of dying ,
i'm just afraid he wouldnt be grieving .

Smiled through her tears ..

Tagged replies (:
Cherrie : buddy i miss you leh ! outing soon okays !
you better don't kill yourself hor . or else i don't know who to
ponder my troubles too . dont know who to accompany me
to crazy . i can't imagine my life without you ok .

Ning - Cherrie : I miss you too la , saturday want go church ?
You can go guy crazy with me . If i'm not around ,
you can find leejunjie okays . he can share all your problems de .
i might not know when i gonna do it , but i know i will ):

Odilia : ning , if you wanna die , can you like finish your olevel
1st dont waste your mum money . hahahah , dont think too too much
just study hard im always here for you (:

ning - odilia : you wont understand de la , you know how stress i am ?
so much things been happening , he dont want me , art , studies ,
family . all this you should know , hais .
i'm sick of living .

tiffy : ning , i know you 're sad , but killing yourself is really damn
fcking stupid to do . you still have your friends , dont forget that ..
and call us out for some ' girl talk ' la . it'll help ..

Ning - tiffy : i know you will say i stupid .
but i really cant stand the stress that i'm facing right now .
how i wish i could end it .

Elisa : haiyo bu yao like this lahh , you die i will sad one lehh ,
i dont want you to be my memory , stay strong , sining .
Don't forget , that s alot of pple who care and loves you outside ,
which is us . i know i might not understand what you are thinking
or why you choose this path or your feeling when you're dead ,
you're alone .rmb , there ' s always us , dont emo till siao leh, i
dont want any big surprise . stop the ' death ' thinking lah ,
dying dosen't help , it 's hiding . rmb , you 'll always have us .

ning - elisa : i'm being strong already , if im not strong
i've already choose to do that since i felt so stress & depressed .
no , but . he dosent even care . he dont care at all !!
i dont know , i determined not to feel regret ,
i thought everything will be over when the times goes on ,
but everything is not what i wanted it to be .
i'm tired of living , sick of living .
hate my life , family , studies . i dontknow why this year is a
damn stress year for me , i couldnt take it .

dont ask me anymore ;(

Labels: a part of me is dying .

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