Oh , stop torturing my life .

I see nothing , but death come upon me .
my life has fall apart , my life cant be happiness as before .
nothing can changed my thinking towards death ,
my family sucks , thanks to my aunt & mum .
Why do i have such a mother ?
this first thing i come home last night , i was doing my art .
& you scolded me . wtfffff , do you know i already had alot
of problems bugging me , you still reprimand me ,
i dont care la hor , i want do my art you like not happy .
saying that art has no future , you are ruining my life cans !
fuck off out of my life and i'll be extremely happy loh ,
4 more years , you wait only .
i'm sure i'll leave this damn house & you dont have a chance
to reprimand me anymore .
All my problems , i dontknow who to tell to .
i'm afraid to trust anymore now , no longer .
i guess only cherrie & SBF click nia .

Cherrie , I know you wont believe me
if i really wanted to end my life ,
but this time , i'm serious .
we ' ve been good friends for 5 yrs for now ,
you know what is my pattern de loh .
This time , everything is like torturing me ,
all things come at one go , idk how to solve each one by one .
In the past , I always tell you all my prolems
and your advice always keep me from being pessimistic .
but , now i'm really sick & tired already .
teach me how to trust ,
teach me how to forget that person ,
teach me how to be the happy person again .
without his presence , i feel nothing .
i feel i'm lacked of something , i'm tired .

my life is completely stressful this june holiday ,
other pple playing and enjoying their holiday ,
me eh ? stress abt art , him , family .
I've been staying awake for the past few days ,
didnt sleep every night cos must do my art .

Let me die for him ,
all the pain will be gone .
死了，痛的感觉会结束 。

Labels: love or not love .