♥ ' s Your mama high .

2010-01-21T13:03:00.003+08:00

WORKING WORKING WORKING :(
Everyday is working working working !
didnt meet up with my dearest friends le ,
i'm sorry . very very busy nowadays ;(
i have decided not to go ite or retain sec 5 .
My result was so "AWESOME" , ohmytian .
I did not shed any tears in school ,
took a cab straight go off with dear after i got result .
but was disappointed in my art .
how can i get so low point for art ?
Few months of preparation equals to failure ??
mdm siti felt disappointed of the art results .
i have choose to go Raffles design institute .
it is a private school for 3years in advanced diploma for
fashion design , bachaler and master degree .
but i have to work till 21years old to get the money to
go this private school .
i want to open my own shop ! designing my own clothes !
finally got a OFF DAY TODAY !!!!!!
resting and need to sleep later if not tml sure very tired de ;(
going watch tooth fairy , JUMP & the spies next door
later at night till 12am ??
wont be blogging often . but will be working everyday ):
JUNJIE OWE ME LONG JOHN ,
BRING TO WORK FOR ME !

2010-01-04T19:05:00.002+08:00

ohmy , it 's super super long since i update my blog :D

Non-stop working since december , gonna work till july .

this full time job is so tiring , selling clothes ):

but i got more discount :D

but at least working in jurong point de outlet ,

i got one new Gan ma ! (: she often scold me but

is because i didnt do my job properly .

2nd january is her birthday , dear share money with me

buy a DIY cake . she so angry scold me ! haha .

Gan ma treat me the best !!!!!!!!!!!

today is off day for me ! wheeeeee .

just got my pay & bought a new touch screen phone ! hotest in spore ! yes !

recently went to malaysia for holiday & spend little time with dear ):

dear want to compare his ear with me ):

i got 8 , he got 4 ! :P

went out with dear for only few times ):

Chalet with sbf clique ;

Today ; 040109 .

Currently at dear ' s house .

transferring songs to my new gadget :D so cool ..

now going westmall for dinner in SWENSEN (:

dear treat me to feast !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wheeeee .

gonna watch OLD DOGS at 9.25 pm .

2009-12-07T12:59:00.004+08:00

Sunday 061209 ;

Went causeway with my dear & meet up with Hillary chin !

it's been such a long time since we last met .

i miss her so much ! last time we always go out together .

we will talk alot of crap inthe past & she will listen to my

xinshi all the time (:

She seems to have shrunk since the last time i saw her !

i think she is becoming more & more auntie too .

go where also discount here discount there , faint !

can't stand her sia , still carry one big WESTMALL BAG !

she keep buying those got discount de ,

then went pasar malam buy things , she say

got $10 dress ! Lol , cant stand her "auntie "

behaviour . haha .

I keep laughing and laughing ! so funny .

haha , went library & do our usual routine ; ZILIAN !

& kana chased out by the Library security ,

like how we used to do last time .

Laughing super super loud last time ! heh .

hillary ;

thanks for being there for me when i always

need someone to talk to .

& always laugh laugh & joke around last time !

haha , remember end of the month we

go out & SHOPPING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

& must 买东西吃东西买东西吃东西 !!!!!!!!!!!

must meet up okays , after i finish that mango job then got money (:

& remember our japan trip hor ~!

takecare my buddy :D see you soon .

2009-11-30T10:46:00.003+08:00

Went escape theme park with dear (: 28th november .

he keep screaming when we were in the pirate ship , haha !

actually i also . heheheh .

sorry for spending your money on the carnival games &

win two bigbig soft toy for me :D

thankiew !

went for movie watch 2012 ; 27th november

celebrating 5th month .

cos tomorrow is our 5th month ,

tml working in office so advanced celebration . heh !

sorry dear , i love you .

took alot photos ! zilian couple .

he have the " ahbeng " look i know :D

2009-11-25T12:15:00.004+08:00

AES Prom night ; 23rd november .

we went to odilia ' s house to prepare everything & book

a maxi cab to fetch us to THE PINES .

The dinner was okays , odilia was our team leader !

played alot of games & dancing dancing when

the whole games has ended . so fun ! i keep zilian ! haha .

my date for Prom night !

i love you so much dear , i will always be here for you !

must smile smile hor ! (:

Jocelyn Lee ; she always cheer me up

whenever i feel sad .

& tutor me maths when i need help .

i miss you ! (:

Clara ; my 4th shifu ! always scold me

when i'm lazy to study & nag me .

but i know you cares .

siewhong ; My gossip partner / my 3rd shifu !

haha , thanks for gossiping with me

& teach me maths !

Malvina ; i will ask her for help

when i dontknow how to do maths question (:

Huifang ; my 2nd shifu , always want me

to finish maths & nag me de .

so fierce de shifu ! thanks for cheering me up

sometimes whenever i feel unhappy .

jinjing ; i want her long hair ! she never donate to me ):

Marilyn ; super nice & friendly classmate !

always gossip together too !

my gossip member !

Alena ; she teach me the things

that i don't know for maths (:

My two buddy (: for life .,

Tiffanie ; my dearest buddy for 3yrs plus .

Thanks for always there for me , buddy ,

although sometimes we have misunderstanding ,

but we are still good friend yea .

if you have any problem , i will be there for you (:

odilia ; Going to 5years of friendship ,

going through misunderstanding

& fun things together .

thanks for being my listening ear

when i need someone to talk to ,

& give me solution and advice on it .

i miss going kbox together !

although we are going to different school next year ,

but we will still be in touch right ?

Lets work hard for our MANGO JOB (:

christian ; sit two seats away from me

& always give me sweets & food !

thanks for helping me take worksheets

whenever i am absent from school (:

taking photos & i know i'm so zilian !

2009-11-25T11:05:00.003+08:00

Childcare centre ; 20th november .

Overdued photos , helping Mrs anna chan

at her childcare centre . The kids are so cute !

we help them do make-up for their performance (:

Let the pictures do the talking ba .

2009-11-18T11:43:00.002+08:00

GRADUATION DAY!

Yesterday took photos at school for graduation day ,

the last time i'm wearing uniform (:

haha , me & dear spray black spray to school .

if not i 'll go school with my blond hair liao le ):

i miss my dearest tiffanie , odilia & alena lots ,

but still will meet up with them for sure .

december working with odilia in MANGO . HAHA !

took photos with ms tiu , junior JOYI &

my dearest Art teacher Mdm siti , she came back to sch !

she show me her newborn baby photo neh ! super cute .

i hope can see her baby soon (: haha !

i forgotten to take photo with Ms lim , i miss you too !

haha , my 5yrs teacher ,don't cry le okays ?!

took photo with my dearest AhJoce ' s clique , i miss them too !

see you all during prom night alright ? Let 's have fun !

i miss class 5/1 ! :(

NICE HAIR COLOUR YEA ?

At bf 's house now , rotting rotting .

Sorry dear cherrie , today can't pei you .

i miss you lots ! meet you soon okays , takecare sister ! (:

tml will be going out buy Prom night stuff ,

with dear , maybe tiffanie & linda .

Friday going odilia 's house , saturday going

escape theme park with tiffanie & weide to

celebrate tiffanie 's birthday (:

cos maybe friday BBQ can't go , sorry tiff ):

Dear carried me cos I fell down and injured my knee .

he carry me , walking in the middle of the road .

then i keep laughing until i fell down . Laughs !

i love you (:

Blond haired couple :D

2009-11-16T10:05:00.002+08:00

Outing with tiffy & others ;

I MISS CHERRIE & FARAH <3

Didnt get to take photo with cherrie cos i didnt go bugis ):

cherrie meet up soon (:

later 2pm must go to school & go for graduation day rehearsal ,

zzzz must spray my blond hair to black hair for 1day , tml also need .

later go school then spray , must help dear spray too .

went westmall with dear ;

& we zilian ! :D

Sweet image of a girl & boy .

2009-11-12T18:31:00.002+08:00

O LEVEL IS OVER !

i don't have to care about this damn school anymore .

i don't have to wear uniform anymore except for

graduation day & result release , haha !

no more stress ! yay ! must go out with my dearest cherrie (:

i miss her sooo much as a sister :D

& PROM NIGHT IS COMING !

Currently finding job before prom night , i need money for it !

but december working with odilia , emily & amanda with her clique

at Mango orchard (:

now waiting for the bloody person to call me confirm to go work ,

this saturday going lynette 's aunt house to

bleach my hair to BLONDE !

Dear gonna bleach blonde too (: his mum gonna dye chestnut brown

with highlight red ! Laughs ! all dye hair together (:

I MISS cherrie , emily , xueting , junjie , tingfong lots (:

2009-11-10T13:37:00.003+08:00

我已经尽力了 ;

Just finished 'O ' chinese exam ; pheeew !

finally get this stupid chinese exam out of my mind ,

Paper 1 was okay but i didn't have enough time ,

so the words i use was average only .

I hope my expectation won't lead to disappointment ,

Paper 2 was SUPER EASY !

i close one eye also can do neh ,

Hopefully can get A1 ba , Distinction belongs to Lai sining (:

Currently at Bf 's house , gonna watch dvd & rest at the same time

then prepare for war at night for physics & chemistry :D

gambateh everyone (:

Thursday outing to bugis with ahjoce 's clique .

2009-11-09T17:28:00.002+08:00

あたしです。(:

Cut , yet unsevered .

Tied , the more it entangles ,

such is parting sorrow .

An unspeakable feelings reveal out from this pictures .

smiling or Not to smile ,

every picture show a different Lai sining (:

I hated how my mother treat me ,

i have to pretend i do not feel sad ,

feigning joy and laughter , all i can do is

hide under my blanket

Longing and yearning throughout the sleepless hours

for her acceptance .

(I know i very zilian nah :P )

谢谢你的肩膀，让我靠一靠 (:

Yesterday was the worst day of my life ,

thanks for being there for me when i need to cry .

Knowing that the only strength that can pull myself up was

your shoulder .

I'm sorry for making your shoulder all wet ,

thanks for cheering me up with your dumbdumb expression ,

making me smile all the way (:

Tomorrow O level chinese must jiayou okays ,

must get B4 , I DON'T CARE !

As for myself , i'll get A1 for you to see (:

I hope that my high expectation won't lead to disappointment .

2009-11-06T17:36:00.002+08:00

ずっとそばにいるから。

问世间，情为何物，直教生死相许？

As the rain brings in twilight , flowers withers .

The early morning wind blows and dries my tears ,.

I wish to write down what is in my heart ,

But all i can do is murmur while i lean on the railing ,

look up to the clear blue sky .

wishing everything was fine after this stressful journey ,

My sickly soul is like the ropes on a swing nowhere .

是你教会我。

Live or die , together or apart .

Our oath remains .

holding your hands , we grow old together .

(dear help me write the japanese words :D )

2009-11-04T10:20:00.003+08:00

我感动天，感动地

怎么感动不了你 .

2 more Olevel paper ! Free from stress (:

my results is like shit ,

i should have expect that i 'll fail badly .

i flunk my maths & combined science .

Looks like there won't be any chances of me going art school ,

wasted 5years of my life in secondary school , sigh .

This coming tuesday is my Olevel chinese retake exam ,

I can't afford to get B3 again , i want a A1 ):

Pray for an easy paper , this few days gonna chiong study chinese .

I want Dear get B4 for chinese , no getting C6 hor .

12th november gonna start working , i need money for prom night man .

gonna perm my hair & dye whole head blond le (:

No more going secondary school yay !

Please let me go to Nanyang academy of fine arts ):

Happy 4th month ;
jiayou for 'O' level okays , gonna end soon ,
Holidays jiu every time accompany you okays ,
but will busy working neh . sorry dear ):
Dear want me go out with your mother uhs ??
ohmytian , i feel like i'm gonna enter the tigress mouth .
Dear , cannot don't go hor ?? ):
i must be gentle in front of your mother right ?
faint - . - is alright , i am always so ' gentle ' :D
i love you .

i miss my dearest cherrie (:

cherrie , meet up soon okays .

Lets talk talk about life okays ? so long

haven't talk xin shi with you liao neh .

after Olevel we go out playplay okays ?

The strong sisterhood :D

2009-10-30T10:29:00.004+08:00

12days to end my nightmare of Olevel !

so damn long since i update liao , crazy to chiong for Olevel;

I flunk my Olevel maths already , Nanyang academy of fine arts

seems to be drifting away from me le ):

shouldnt slack & lazy all the time , wasted 5years of studying ):

This coming monday is Social studies Paper , tues is art .

didnt sleep last night,

been drawing my art but i'm feeling very very lazy neh .

getting more and more stress everyday .

tiffanie , Get well soon ! SS on monday chiong hor .

Lai sining ! must tahan !

must pass Your OLEVEL ! STUDY !

i just hope that i will pass everything &

finish everything as soon as possible .

i'm gonna work in office straight after my last Olevel paper , lalala .

gonna get my pay & buy Dear ' s Violin

& go perm my hair with bleach it Blond :D

won't update so soon , i hate Olevel .

Xiexie dear for accompany me to stay up the whole night

while i drawing my art for Olevel exam .

sorry for making you so tired & look so sleepy today .

sorry sorry ): next time i pei you stay up whole night too okays ?

2 more days to 4th month ! (:

I will always ai ni (:

010709 .

2009-10-22T14:59:00.003+08:00

NO MORE SECONDARY SCHOOL FOR ME !
I agree with tiffy ;i won't miss this school at all .
i won't miss anything about the school .
but , my friends . i 'll still hang out with them after Olevel .
For those OLEVEL students ;
Let 's jiayou & gambateh on our Olevel alrights ?
GOODLUCK (:
I FLUNK MY OLEVEL PRACTICAL TODAY ):

ohmy , i stuck at physics prctical for 20mins .
the teacher help me with my physics , then he guide me how to start .
my mind went blank totally , die le my physics marks minus points liao .
my chemistry still okay , physics ? i dont wish to talk about how i do .
haha , TIME TO CONCENTRATE ON OTHER SUBJECTS (:
Next monday is Olevel english paper ! ): pray hard to pass le . hais !
Hope that everything go smoothly , my other subjects must chiong le .
chinese ? RETAKE !
i hope i can remember all the things ba , my art gonna keep drawing
& drawing le .
Pray to finish every revision on time ):
After Olevel , i'm gonna chiong work and 买东西吃东西了！！！wheeeee !

2009-10-21T15:36:00.005+08:00

I am finally out of assumption english school ;

My hair turns curly ., nice hor ???

tomorrow is First Olevel practical paper ! ohmytians .

i dont have any confidence in passing nehs. hais !

good luck to everyone that tooks Olevel (: jiayou tml (:

didnt attend school today , now at dear ' s house .

took care of stacey 's baby just now , tian ar .

Baby Jayven give me hell man ): keep crying . tian uhs .

sometimes , i keep thinking about it .

should i continue stay in SBF ?

lol , i just read one of the SBF pple 's blog ,

you dont treat me as ' REAL friend ' , neither will i treat you as friend anymore .

My pillar of strength .

Good luck for your Olevel exams tomorrow , , gambateh dear (:

Dear draw this , talented in drawing hor . he should take ART not POA !

2009-10-16T18:58:00.003+08:00

5 more days ;
I'll be out of ASSUMPTION ENGLISH SCHOOL (:
6days to Olevel practical exam ;
i dont have any confidence in passing , i know time is running out .
but i 'm still here running on the same spot .
I know there is no time to be lazy & slacking .
but i just couldn't settled my heart to study .
teachers stressing us , seriously i hate it .
few days left , i'm trying my best to learn as much as i can .
i still have my Art paper2 , drawing again .
what can i do ? there is no choice for me not to do it .
Thus , because of art . i 'm failing the rest of my subjects .
i 'm weak in alot subjects but there is no need for you keep demoralise me .
stop scolding me cans , it 's just few days i don't wish to see any teachers anymore .

Teach me how to smile when i'm such a total failure ;

SENTIMENTAL ;
3 个月；16 天 ♥
I'm very sorry to quarrel with you yesterday .
i didnt want to quarrel with you .
Thanks for forgiving me & giving in to me .
i know there is only one word to describe me ; Lousy Gf .
Our relationship will grow even stronger ♥

The moon ; always be surrounded with stars (:
Because i'm always standing behind you .
You make me cry , make me smile ,
make me feel that Love is true .

2009-10-09T18:25:00.005+08:00

Be Optimistic .
been telling myself this for past few months .
not to be so stress ): sigh !
Olevel ART paper 2 will be given out next week ,
i might be busy everyday drawing all the sketches ):
but still accompany dear de (:

The hellish experience to force myself to wake up at the crack of dawn,
the insistent nags I get from my Aunt and Mom,
and the amount of intolerable stress that's been piling up since Day 1 of school.
When will all of these end?

010709 ♥

Now you will feel no pain ,
for i will be there for you .
Now you will feel no cold ,
For i will hug you with all of my warmth .
Now there will be no more loneliness for you ,
For i will accompany you throughout the rest of your life .
Now your life will be full of stars ,
For the moon will always be watching you from high above .
Now you have placed a ring on my finger to promise to love me for eternity ,
I am willing to say that i feel the same too .
To enter into the places of our togetherness ♥

2009-10-07T18:10:00.003+08:00

Sick & tired .
Didn't attend school for two days , Yawns .
today came over to Boyfriend house to sleep , freaking tired .
I just woke up from a horrible dream , seeing dear 's face
becoming a ghost from " COMING SOON " . scare dao wo sia !
he also feeling unwell , please takecare hor .
my eyes swollen yesterday , flu & headache ):
going back home after posting , return to hell of school tml ):
HATE OLEVEL ):

分担你的喜怒哀乐 ♥
Some people believes that ' Your first love to be your last '
, & your last to be your first '.
A time when all that you can do is hope that somehow he will
realise what a difference he made in my life ♥

Tuesday ; 061009
Sick ): went cck polyclinic see doctor alone .
saw albert behind me ! orh hor , never go sch .
we go blk 418 there , tiffanie came over to accompany us .
she went to weide 's hse for some " Private moment " .
saw stacey 's parents , called stacey asking her whether can go up her hse .
albert tag along too , haha ohmytian , the baby super super cute neh .
emily came after awhile , play & see baby jayven bath bath .
finally Jayven 3months le hor ! (: i keep making him smiling ,
i talk to him , he respond . haha ! emily says i look as if i'm a mother already !
LOL , Baby jayven cry . Albert korkor carry him , he stop crying .
Stacey 's mum says he can become a good father (:

so much different between when he just born & 3 months sia .
i'm looking forward to him calling me jiejie .
Took photos of BABY JAYVEN (:

3 MONTHS OLD (:

WHEN BABY JAYVEN BORN (:

went Lot1 with emily ; went tiffy 's house .

STRONG SISTERHOOD ;

2009-10-05T17:55:00.002+08:00

Zilian couple (:
It is impossible to smile without your presence .
You taught me what 's the true meaning of Love .

When the rain stop , everything will be back to normal ?
I can't wait for Olevel to get out of my life ,
Working & enjoying my life might be a better life for me (:
A sentimental moron inside me who still hopes for a miracle ;
Tears came , one after another .
I sat alone , wanting to rationalize ,
to get what is causing me so much pain .

Leave me aside to think of my Broken Promises.

sunday 041009 ;
Went IMM with dear & odilia , do this kiddy painting .
it 's good to be childish (:

BEFORE .

AFTER .

Went play candle with dear again at night .

saturday 031009 ;
Meet up with dear , odilia & emily at Odilia ' hse downstair play candle ,
we ate the Strawberry mooncake share share (: yummy (:
we use damn alot of candle to make a super big HEART .
pictures shall do the talking (:

2009-10-02T18:33:00.003+08:00

3RD MONTH 3RD MONTH .
I LOVE YOU SO SO SO MUCH ! :D
went out on our 3rd month , watch " Cloudy with a chance of meatballs "
then i with darling eat pastamania (: until $23 . laughs .
today ms lee say , 20days to Olevel !?!!

你说再苦也要跟我直到老。。。
When i say i don't want to be touched ,
Embrace me in your arms until i am .
When i say no one cares ,
Show me that it's all a lie .

waiting for 4th month ...

2009-09-28T17:38:00.004+08:00

Happy 17 th birthday to OW WEIDE ! (:
Your student here saying happy birthday to my tutor (: ahaha !

it 's damn long since i update my blog cans .
haha , was busy with OLEVEL .
OLEVEL coming in 14DAYS !!?!!
ohmytian , i'm busy with my damn ART coursework &
forget all about my other subjects ): i want go NAFA !
i know i dont have hope for poly , i'm the weakest in the class ):
thanks for dearest ' s encouragement , you must study hard too hor !
won't be updating ba , sick of OLEVEL !
get me out of secondary 5 !
anyways , i miss my dearest partner (:
thanks for your tagg (:
meet up soon (: change the pic le ;D

In my heart , YOU are the source of sunlight .
Alot people say my this photo i look like sec2 ! (:
haha , i know is a compliment . haha
it 's good to look young . laughs !
overdued pics (:

I REJECTED HIS KISS!

P.S K-PO PEOPLE ;
this is the truth that some pple wanted right ? sick of
some people spreading , talk back about it already .
always pass by my blog see , & in school saying about it ?
are you pleased with these pictures ?

2009-09-03T18:04:00.002+08:00

你是我心中一句惊叹 ;
Dont worry le hao ma ? i wont break de okays .
& i'll always love you de oh .
no matter how your future will be ,
i'm always here with you .
I'm sorry i didnt celebrated our 2nd month together ,
the rest of the months i will celebrated with you de okays ?
i promise will be a good girl , no smoking , no drinking with guys ok ?
i will promise everything you say ;
i hope we won' t quarrel anymore .

010709 ;
Perhap is fate by having the same birthday with you .

Deeper sea, wider sky .
I pray to be with you through every shining day .

2009-09-03T17:09:00.003+08:00

010909 ; Tuesday .
Happy 2nd month , dear (:

I'm sorry .
sorry dear bu neng pei ni oh , haha .
but i surprise you with cake right . see i sooo good hor ;x
You will always be my dearest darling okays !
I won't mention anything about BREAKUP le (:
outing with Leejunjie aka Son to tampines walk walk .
we eat seoul garden , i'm damn fking full cans ! ohmy .
took alot sillypics in the mrt , been so long since i went out with son .

Act cute pic (:

310809 ; Monday .
Teacher 's Day celebration & my official 17th birthday (:
happy birthday to Darling (:
Attend school for celebration ; Laughs .
chaochao , terence , dennis , weide came back ! hahah miss them man !
The pictures below shall do the talking .

zoo pictures (:

went out with dearest darling to celebrate our birthday !
went to zoo & plaza sing eat our xinwang (:
i keep making noise atthe zoo to attract the animals attention .
then darling say i siaozharboh neh .
see , darling so bad de hor ><
290809 ; SATURDAY .
Outing with dearest Cherrie , emily & darling (:
They help me celebrate my birthday !
Yay ! i'm officially 17 now !! 31st aug ! hai hao they have xim .
the rest , forget it man .
went town walk & went plaza sing find her " friend " ,
wanted pass that "friend " sushi , in the end Cherrie dont dare hor .
hahahha ,took alot of silly pics that day man .

Went bugis with darling in the morning meet up with sherlynn & renwei .
they bought a bag for me as birthday present :D
thanks alot wor (:

2009-08-28T18:30:00.003+08:00

我最爱的好朋友 ; Bangs !

Went out with dearest cherrie & darling (:
hah , met up at causeway and spent $6.90 eating PizzaHut .
ohmytian , after that took train back to cck .
haah , We rebonded our fringe & cutted the same bangs !
Lynette ' s aunt say we both look like sister , but we are .
Now currently at Cherrie ' s house with darling ,
She is trying her best to learn Canon in C on her keyboard , Laughs !
tml will be going out with odilia & the others to cineleisure celebrate my birthday !
Monday going celebrate my ACTUAL birthday with darling (:

Updating the outing ' s photos next week ;

美美，不要伤心了 .
Dearest haobuddy ;
I know you are trying your best not to bothered about that matter .
at least you told someone about your xinshi , which is me .
dont worry le alrights ?
you must make your decision properly okays ?
i think is best if you just let go of him when he doesn't even care
& concern about you , dont make yourself suffer & force yourself
to fake a smile infront of him okays?
I can see from your smile NOW ! haha .
Let go is the best solution , since your feeling towards him already faded .
dont sad alrights ,
when you sick , if he doesn't care .
I CARE JIU HAO LE !
when you bored , he didnt bothered to entertain you .
I ENTERTAIN YOU NOH !
when you need someone to talk to , he dont know how to "auto".
NING WILL BE HERE FOR YOU ALWAYS (:

smile hao ma ?
笑一笑，没有什么事是过不了的 ;D

2009-08-24T17:55:00.004+08:00

Disappointment .
Sometimes i wish , i could just jump down .
OLEVEL IS LESS THAN 2 MONTHS !
When i ' ve really studied for my Olevel chinese ,
things didn't the way i wanted .
I expected my chinese to be an A2 , when i got B3 .
just feel like i done all my best ,
crying in school for an hour after result release .
i'm such a useless girl , my friends told me not to cry
as B3 is a good grade afterall .
But for my expectation , I 've never get a B3 before .
I wanted an A2 or A1 .
why am i so stupid ?!!? my mum was so disappointed .
Thanks for darling ' s encouragement .
I've decided to retake again .
I swear to everyone and myself that B3 is out of my world !
I will push all my ways to get an A1 for chinese for the retake .
I can't afford to flunk chinese .
The rest of my subjects , i have no comment .
Today is the second day of Olevel prelim , how i just wish i could just fail .
wednesday is my Art prelim , wtff ?! i have not prepare it .
cos was tied up with my Olevel art coursework ,
ohmytian , I didnt have time .
tonight gonna chiong ss .
tml no school , gonna do art ba .

Went out with sillyboy .

我知道你的心被我感动了。
Darling been complaining that i keep zilian !
currently at his house now .
waiting for him to cook for me , what a sweet husband . Laughs !
Goodluck for his Olevel prelim paper tomorrow .
"Please dont sleep so late tonight alrights ,
must have energy , dont make yourself tired .
dont sleep during exam tml hor ! ily .

2009-08-18T17:30:00.003+08:00

镜子里的我很不像我 ;
I'm not acting emo here .
I 'm only sure my character suit emo type .
am i living in this world for no reason ?
why is every single things not going smoothly for me ?
I hate to study , ohmyfkinggod . tml will be my art de duedate
for my 8boards . can i finish on time ? stress-ed up man :/
Hoping things would never change , sometimes i look myself in
my relection , wondering who am i , pretending a different person .
TOMORROW Olevel chinese result release !
Praying for myself to get an A2 , I can't fail .
Hoping all my classmates could get an A too (:
Junjie , emily & dearest , aim A1 alrights (:

Dearest ;
I know is tough being with me right ?
it 's going 2months soon , Our birthday lays on 31st August !
it is a good thing to have the same birthday as you !
Promise me you willl celebrate with me okays ? haha .
never buy present is okays de , but i must buy for you !
Nowadays , i'm trying my best not to make you feel angry or pissed .
i dont wish to quarrel with you over a small matter all the times .
I'm sorry to thought of breaking up with you last week ,
I'm sorry for acting too impulsive okays ?
& i won't break up de ba , don' t worry about this matter cans ?
Stop apologised to me , is not your fault .

请你千万不要再怀疑，这份感情。

2009-08-18T17:21:00.002+08:00

uploading National Day parade 2009 photos !
Held at marine bay , 9th augest .
I went NDP with dearest (:

2009-08-15T10:26:00.001+08:00

哭了 , 累了 .
HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY TO SHERMAN CHIA :)
You ar , better study hor .
And dont smoke too much ar ,
is bad for your health hor . You are only 14yrs old , sorry didnt buy you present leis .
Takecare and enjoy your 14th birthday today okays ? See you on monday in school .
I am now currently at jurong east library , doing my art . Waiting for mr silly to come find me , LOL .
Olevel chinese result release on 19th aug ! Which is this coming wednesday . Im damn worried . my olevel art deadline is end of this month , Olevel prelim is this coming friday . I am doing my best to pay attention in class , but all i get when i went to school is being reprimand from teachers , go home being reprimand by parents . I feel like giving up entire thing now . This life sucks can ? every night crying to my sleep , telling myself tomorrow will be a better day . But it doesnt seems to work . . Not letting friends and darling to worry , i just have to remain normal . I have just realised , pretending to be someone that you can't possibly be is totalling tormenting . I kept all my feelings inside , and i wouldnt allow myself to acknowle any pain , i could somehow avoid experiencing it .
Teach me how to laugh ,
teach me how to smile in my sleep .

She cries out , but no one hears .

I'll be yours till i die .
Dont worry already , mr silly .
I wont do anything make you angry and feel unhappy already alright .

2009-08-03T09:10:00.003+08:00

Reality .
Didnt attend school today , still feeling sick ):
currently at darling ' s hse .
gonna rest , sleep cos my throat veh pain .
at night going causeway & watch the movie " overheard "
with darling . sorry to make you pay for the show again ):
hope your cough will get better .

so cute hor ?!!!

Act one fatherly look , act cute only .

do i look inspired to have one baby ?
haha , it 's so xingfu having such a baby cans .
junjie look so fatherly man , see i carry baby never cry nehs !!

idk what the hell that tingfong is doing .
haha , his name has change to Pangtingfong ! laughs .

This little girl here is called Lovelle .
she is super cute cans , she is Michelle 's daughter .
she keep want me to carry her & play with her , laughs .
junjie say i look as if i'm her mother loh !
i was arguing with tingfong & junjie , then i carry Lovelle
and use her leg and kich tingfong & junjie .
i was like " lovelle , see , korkor naughty , must kick him oh ! "
she cried when her mummy dont let her go out from the room !
she is super cute de (:

Stacey & Baby Jayven (:
She is the real mummy here (:
stacey , must takecare of yourself no matter what okays .
i know is tough for you , if you need any help ,
you can call me anytime alrights .
you can find me , emily , junjie and tingfong de (:
i know you must have alot problems now for the future ,
dont worry okays . i know Baby Jayven ' s smile can
light up your entire life (:
we will be there for you (: takecare stacey .

Ended with group ' s photos (:

I will be the star surround you with all
the light & warmth i have in your life .
please believe me ? i know what i have did wrong ,
i'm very sorry to hurt your feeling .
i know you already tahan veh long le ,
i'm very sorry . i will change de okays ?
when the night has come , my tears fall .
when my crying had diminished to random hiccuping sighs .
i cant afford to lose you now , cause you keep me from
falling apart . you 're very important to me ,
I will be faithful , the reason for living is you .

2009-07-31T11:45:00.002+08:00

当我找不到彩虹，是你放回我心中。
currently at darling 's house .
didnt went for school cos i have fever and cough .
he also sick now ): dontknow how to make him feel better .
i am so worried now , hais .
tml is our first month (: i know the time is slow .
promise me we will still be walking together right ?
dont worry about my fever , i'm more worried for you .

Every breath i take seems as the
testimony of my everlasting love .
stop all the stressing , i cant stand it .
when the rain stop , everything will be back to normal ?
I've lived my life , with more tears than laughter .

All it takes , is only the word fate .

2009-07-30T15:10:00.003+08:00

I'm just so fking sick of studying .
all i get when i went to school , scolding & nagging .
my maths is just damn weakest in the class cans .
everyone keep telling me , is like less than 3 more months
to leave this damn school. but why it seems forever ..
today still have to see somebody ' s face , wtfff .
just let me off cans , i'm stress & damn tired everyday .
how i wish i was an ostrich so i could bury my head in the ground.
yesterday cried in class , idk why .
just cant take it , after talking to junpeng ,
i feel so much better . thanks 师傅 (:
my life now only filled with him ; ohmytian .

it ' s impossible to smile without your presence (:

It 's hard to bear .
who will i run to ?
who will i turn to ?
I see , i remember .
I do , i understand .

MISS MY DEAREST SBF ):
miss junjie , amanda ong , xueting , emily , tingfong & kaihong ):
meet up soon hor .
this sunday going stacey house with junjie , emily & tingfong .
i want see her baby !(:

2009-07-30T14:56:00.003+08:00

OVERDUED PICS ON SATURDAY 250709 ;

went east coast park picnic with darling ,
took alot of pics , but lazy upload .
& lazy say liao . the pictures shall do the talking .
and he wear domo shirt .
damn funny , haha .

2009-07-23T18:09:00.006+08:00

Finally updated my blog (:
haha , today was sent home by ms lim .
because i have flu & cough . didnt go physic practical (:
currently at darling ' s house , just being tortured by him .
he brewed herbal tea for my flu , thanks for being so sweet .
i think tml not going school , hais . that 's good man ,
i hate studying now . tiffanie sot one , keep telling me to pass my flu to her .
so that she can go home too , maybe tml going with tiffanie see doctor take mc (:
yesterday went science centre so fun cans , laughs .
saturday going east coast park with darling ,
gonna cook spaghatti for him (: then picnic at east coast park .
i'm going to play rollerblade , yay ! my favourite .
this are the overdued pics (:

190709 ; sunday .

I'm standing infront of the 18levels of hell .
went to one place around pasir panjang to see those ancient things (:
i also dontknow whats the name , last time i went is when i'm 3 years old ??
darling pei me go (: and eat icecream .
we made a wish at the wishing pond there , haha . so cool nehs (:
took damn alot photos cans , ohmytian .
darling is the photographer ! (: did i spell correct ? hah .

His kiss melted my heart , 010709 .
thanks for being there for me all the times .
wiping my tears for me when i cry , hha .

180709 ; saturday .

went to plaza sing with darling to watch harry potter ,
and i treat him eat XINWANG HONGKONG CAFE .
eat until $40 plus , laughs my money fly away liao .
shop shop with him until 9plus then went home (:

2009-07-09T17:52:00.003+08:00

Ohmyfkinggod , I flunk my OLEVEL CHINESE ORAL TODAY !
I feel like crying cans , whatthefish .
i want get good marks de . hais ! went for physic remedial today .
damn long never update blog liao , busy for Olevel .
esp art , physic & maths ! i can go crazy liao .
wont be posting often (: spending time in school studying .
hopefully ba , my art !!
No more slacking , chiong Olevel for this 3months (:

Will be MIA - ING till i'm free from STRESSSSSSSS !

It 's deeply etched on my mind .
Your smile , Your love & concern (:
I believe that i'm not good enough for him ,
but he keep insist that i'm good .
010709 ; He made a difference in my life .

I hate my mother .
There was nights she cried herself to sleep ,
remembering the harsh words of her mother .
She was a loser , a disappointment to her .
Her criticism caused her to believe that she is completely hopeless .

just fuck off .

2009-07-09T17:03:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 13TH BIRTHDAY TO HERMEN CHEONG (:
you finally grow up man , see i so good .
today go your class say happy birthday to you neh (:
haha , i owe you present kkays (:

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL REOPEN ):

smoking with my tiffy (:

went out with xiaoxuan & ben .
see ben shirt , "ME NO MOOD TODAY " , act cute oonly !
haha , i happy mood today leis . !
overdued PICs (:

2009-06-25T14:03:00.002+08:00

我闭上眼睛倒数五四三二一 .

Let me die .
Alcohol and cigarette ,
Being sober makes my pain go worse ,
Fill my vision with the cigarette smoke so
i couldnt see my pain so clearly .
Sometimes i wish i were a kid again ,
innocent cries are easier to forget than being hurt now .
At night i would clutch my fists and bite my lips ,
too frightened to close my eyes ,
because i would always end up picturing his silly face .
Love does not begin and end the way we seems to think it does .

His words tore through me ,
piercing every inch of my body and
cutting jaggedly through my heart .

是谁从我天空摘走了星星
一转眼眉头聚满乌云
从来快乐悲伤都自己横行
忘了我也值得被关心

一双手一个梦
一路上不断的俯冲
痛到忘了要怎么喊痛

漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过
我的世界是零下的沙漠
其实我也想要拥抱的温柔
融化这颗坚强的泡沫
漫长的等候让人特别失落
锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手
陪着我期待消失的彩虹

I need a rainbow to guide me the right path .

Teach me to laugh , Not cry .
When my crying has diminished to random hiccuping sighs .
Though my tears i smiled , because of all the silent pain & suffering .
Words can make a deeper scar than silence can heal ,
Right now , my love was only causing pain .
anyways , to xiaodi - Renwei , dont sad anymore alrights .
Dajie will be here to keep you advice !
although i have alot problems in mind .

Mdm siti ' s Daughter .
Ohmy , she is damn cute cans .
today mdm siti bought her to ART Room ,
& i blow this balloon for her , & keep playing with her yea .
now she is still here , i'm doing my art boards . Lol .
gonna stay here until 3pm & leave by then i guess .
will be going home & chiong art , today wildwildwet cancelled !
i'm sibei sad loh , wtfff . but forget it , do art ba .

2009-06-23T09:32:00.002+08:00

Cry , laugh , pain .
我望着天在心中默默念
下一秒你出现在眼前
想念的心装满的都是你
我的钢琴弹奏的都是你
我的日记写满的都是你的名 .

连闭上眼睛怎麽都是你
你可不可以爱我可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过 , 告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑能告一段落
你可不可以爱我可不可以看我
反正看或不看我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我快乐还是寂寞

是谁从我天空摘走了星星 ;

I'm asking myself this days .
When is the last time you felt really happy ?
- When I'm with him .

When is the last time you cried ?
- When his words hurts me .

When is the last time you felt that was the worst day in your life ?
- When I couldnt see him .

What is the one thing you would never do in your life ?
- Betray & lie to friends .

I begrudge times which had passed , It' s hard to bear .
Who will i run to ?
Who will i turn to ?
Who will dry my tears when i cry ?
I finally know what it meant to love wholeheartedly .

Cause i'll do anything , cos i want you to stay with me .
I wanted nothing more than to cry myself to sleep & never wake up .

Thanks qianyi , rachael for your words (:
But i dontknow , I 've make up my mind .
If i die , he would live happily .
Thhis thurs will be going WILDWILDWET with Junjie , emily , richard ,
amanda . and idk who le .
This saturday going church , can see him (:

haha , guess whose ear had so much piercing ?
answer is ME ! anyways , will be going pierce again later (:

Will be MIA this week due to Art coursework & outings .

2009-06-19T10:28:00.003+08:00

When the sky crumbles , the earth shakes .
but i'll be here waiting .
突然觉得我可以死掉 , 我受不了 .
I wish to see you .
I wishes to talk to you .
why is this so goddamn difficult ?

好想好好爱你
这一句话只能藏成秘密
关上窗外的雨　反覆碰触你爱过的痕迹
好想好好爱你
却没有权利　再把你抱紧
从今以后　如果你能快乐
就别管我想你
想对你说 You're always be my love
我还是好想你

You may refuse my care , providing me
with reasons to stop loving you ,
But i'll persevere .
Even if giving up seems the only option ,
But it 's the candle that never goes out no matter
how hard the wind blows .
It 's impossible to smile without your presence ,
Can you see a sentimental moron inside me
who still hopes for miracle ?
I wished my dream was real , you can't live without a heart .
It 's similar to trying to live without you .
I wish i was an ostrich so i could bury my head in the ground .

Love to hate , Happiness to anger .
Joy to grief .
Disappointment .

Your the one that i always miss ,
never thought it would feel like this .
Forever baby , i'll rememeber you .

Tagged replies (:
Jolene : I didnt know you have my photo (Laughs)
I not in Aes liao lor ! haha , study hard ok ?
see you around soon .

Ning to jolene : haha , you my sec1 & 2s good friend .
of course have nah , haha . you takecare alrights .
meet up soon (: i veh long never see you le .
you got everytime atLot1 mah ?

Elisa : you arhh , very the stubborn lehh .. dont die lah ,
die liao you oso cannot see him , you die for him ,
you think he will care mey ? if he care he oso cant be with you ,
one in heaven one in earth . stop thinking liao . the more you think
the more you want to die , so dont think kay .

Ning to elisa : where got stubborn wor ?
you wont understand de laaa . hmmm hmmmm , i will try my best
not to think but i canot promise . cos it is a must ):

2009-06-19T09:47:00.004+08:00

Ultraman , I know i'm not young .
This photos was taken an hour ago ,
haha wa swaiting with aziela & nashirq in the school library
for laptop . haha , i'm now in the art room .
later have to chiong art liaooooo . wheeeeeeeeeeeee !
Going with tingfong watch movie later ,

watching hannah montana movie . ):
but i dont like the show . zzzzz .
next week i still have to go school everyday for art ,
cos need to do painting . sians !
Tml might b going church , i know is weird .
haha , i want seeeeee him , but dk wll see dao him anot ):
xueting , dont sad . tml i come anwei ni (:
sunday might be going out with odilia . (:

180609 ; Thursday . YESTERDAY !
On the way to woodlands , I call xueting .
asking whether she wanna go with us , we chatted for awhile .
she cried while talking , idk what happen to her .
suddenly break down wor , hais .
I sais one thing that makes her laugh .
I ask her whether she had any tissue with her then i say
i feel like flying there to her & offer her tissue .
Choy Xueting , dont cry anymore .
Your kuku sister here will be here for you no matter what ,
i 'll be your listening ear okays . everything will be fine (:
dont think soo much anymore .
you are always with me when i feel so sad & hopeless ,
you help me alll the times , thanks alot (:
Now , you 're upset .
& you can count on me to make you smile (:
I finally calm xueting down , & talking noh .
Meet wongtingfong at causeway , ohmyohmy .
watch drag me to hell , i swear this is the last time i ever
mention about this movie man . went did some
real business with that GB before we go in for
movie . haha , it 's a secret (:
I cant believe that i would still be frighten inside the cinema .
hah , tingfong was scared neh . He keep on covering his damn eyes ;D
I kana xia dao you mei you ! for 3 times .
hide behind tingfong ' s shirt ! . haha .
hate it when he keep on repeating the same word , 你妈妈飞 !!
he said it in every sentence sia , i really getting piss off by that SGB liao .
Then i tell him , 你妈妈 high la hor !! & he scold me back .
I encounter alot of weird incident man , haha dont wish to mention .
Took 187 go home BUT !?!! alighted at tingfong hse de bustop
which is like one stop before my house . wah , i want go home de !
That GB forced me to go Lot1 with him , go there walk one round & went home .
wah , tingfong , you think you veh cute ar . think i so free hor .
it 's seems that everyday slack at Lot1 is sooo goddamn boring cans !
He accompany me go back to my house there & he walk home ,
fan zheng so near nia . I hope he wont kana kidnap by those ' SBF ' .
yea yea , SBF memebers know what is that yea .
talk to tingfong about someone , haha .
went home & i'm bored , was msging with pples .
called my 好朋友 , Cherrie tan . chatchat while (:
i miss her man , she asked me next monday go sentosa wor .
sorry bestie , kind of busy for art yea . that day at night find you
watch movie okay ! we both nia hor . it 's been so long
since i sit couple seats with you . haha , the past (:

I was tooo bored & i make this (: nice hor ?

2009-06-18T13:25:00.004+08:00

Temptation .
I just found this photo in phone , ohmytian .
this is like damn long ago cans , Laughs .
I haven't decided when i'm leaving but i will .
going watch movie at causeway later ,
ohmygod , ' drag me to hell ' again .
i think i'm so addicted to this show cans , too obsessed in it liao .
pei tingfong go watch , haha . three times in a row watching the
same show . can i go bang wall ?! i'm gonna scare tingfong later ;D
hope that later wongtingfong wont say that damn word again ,
i'll be so piss off . eh , you better dont say 你妈妈飞 later hor .
I will tell you , 你妈妈 high !
currently in school doing my art , leaving at 5pm .
I'm craving for drinking now neh , i want drink !
nobody neh , might b finding SBF pple drink noh ):
either Duyuan they all . hais !
been living in this stressful life with ups & downs ,
need drinking to cut down everything ):

Friends are important in everyone ' s life ,
but sometimes I've been thinking ,
maybe i doesnt have a friend that could clearly
understand me well .
I dont know , trust SBF more than anything now .
cherrie & odilia is a must , of course .
friends for years , get along well for 2 yrs , so what ?
they treat you like dust , whatever ? i dont care .
I dont think between us , there's anything to talk about le .
I deleted all the NOT - important friends number ,
I feel that i can longer had anymore contact with it .
Afterall , I have stop believing that friends are trustworthy .

I've lived my life , with more tears tham laughter .
People believes that life is more valuable than others .
No , I don't agree .
Life could change with the closing of a door , hiding in my room .
I seen different type of people with each character ,
I seen fear in them .
I lost control of everything that was constant in my life ,
i was so afraid of getting all the pain .
Pretending that everything was normal was the worst pain
i could have given myself ;
I tried to keep quiet , but it began to consume me ,
I almost break down .

Death , the last sleep ?
No , the final awakening .

Chen Yueyin ; working partner for life .
I miss chen yueyin alot man ,
where is she ! everyday hor , busy with work & bf .
haha , dont tired yourself okays .
i know you are truly devoted to your bf , no need 24 hrs ! ;p
sian , veh long never go out with you le .
see you with your short hair , I'm not used to it (:
still prefer your long hair wor . my phone alot !
hah , got sooo much thing to tell you man ,
feel so moody recently , i dontknow why .
Yueyin !!! i got alot problems ! zzzzz .
meet up soon hor (: Next time i ask you out ,
you better say yes .
haha , i know you 're 24hrs working & 24 hrs wife .
so busy neh , dont make me envy la .
but try to make it free for your patner here alrights ! ;D
SEE YOU SOON , MY DEAR PARTNER (:

2009-06-17T11:20:00.003+08:00

我发现比想象更想你
比爱你更爱你我的这些分离
努力是为了梦想梦想最想到的终站
原来是你为了见你
我们的天地我游走天和地
我看清言和语却只能看到你
你才享受这阳光我的阴天也就晴朗
多么神奇多爱你才有这默契

Those words ,
hurts deep inside .
I dont wanna miss any chances of seeing you .
I wanted to call you but i know what you would say ,
why must i make myself feels disappointed .
Dont tell me anything about him ,
I'm afraid it would be bad news .
i'm afraid to pin my hopes too high ,
making a fool of myself .

Junjie tell me if i wanna go die ,
please go ahead .
You say de , Don't regret .

痛了却不懂得喊痛；

2009-06-17T10:45:00.003+08:00

160609 ; Tuesday .
Watch ' DRAG ME TO HELL ' movie at vivo .
i'm watching it again , twice in a row . power hor ?
ohmytian , for the second time , i'm still scared !
but junjie more scared than me , haha .
emily scream alot alot times sia , zzzz .
Junjie sooo scared wor , i was like laughing laaa .
we took alot of stupid pics cans , th show start at 7pm .
finish show at 9 plus jiu went home le .
if the person can bring me to hell ,
that would be great man ):

Today didnt have mood to do any art ,
i'm using the laptop . sitting with weiwei .
later might be going out with odilia cherrie & junyan .
odilia asked me go , but dk whether want go ma .
becourse i'm not wearing proper attire for outing wor .
sian , if ot going might be going home or staying in sch .

2009-06-16T11:45:00.004+08:00

我要走了，因为太爱你。
Tell me not to do it , just tell me .
okay , i'm emoing again in school .
telling meself if i fell asleep , never wake up again .
maybe forgetting about him for one minute ,
when i'm awake , I would be whenever he was .
The perfect memories is all never found again ,
I can make things happen , i dont have to wait for them to
hapen to me .

i'm not afraid of dying ,
i'm just afraid he wouldnt be grieving .

Smiled through her tears ..

Tagged replies (:
Cherrie : buddy i miss you leh ! outing soon okays !
you better don't kill yourself hor . or else i don't know who to
ponder my troubles too . dont know who to accompany me
to crazy . i can't imagine my life without you ok .

Ning - Cherrie : I miss you too la , saturday want go church ?
You can go guy crazy with me . If i'm not around ,
you can find leejunjie okays . he can share all your problems de .
i might not know when i gonna do it , but i know i will ):

Odilia : ning , if you wanna die , can you like finish your olevel
1st dont waste your mum money . hahahah , dont think too too much
just study hard im always here for you (:

ning - odilia : you wont understand de la , you know how stress i am ?
so much things been happening , he dont want me , art , studies ,
family . all this you should know , hais .
i'm sick of living .

tiffy : ning , i know you 're sad , but killing yourself is really damn
fcking stupid to do . you still have your friends , dont forget that ..
and call us out for some ' girl talk ' la . it'll help ..

Ning - tiffy : i know you will say i stupid .
but i really cant stand the stress that i'm facing right now .
how i wish i could end it .

Elisa : haiyo bu yao like this lahh , you die i will sad one lehh ,
i dont want you to be my memory , stay strong , sining .
Don't forget , that s alot of pple who care and loves you outside ,
which is us . i know i might not understand what you are thinking
or why you choose this path or your feeling when you're dead ,
you're alone .rmb , there ' s always us , dont emo till siao leh, i
dont want any big surprise . stop the ' death ' thinking lah ,
dying dosen't help , it 's hiding . rmb , you 'll always have us .

ning - elisa : i'm being strong already , if im not strong
i've already choose to do that since i felt so stress & depressed .
no , but . he dosent even care . he dont care at all !!
i dont know , i determined not to feel regret ,
i thought everything will be over when the times goes on ,
but everything is not what i wanted it to be .
i'm tired of living , sick of living .
hate my life , family , studies . i dontknow why this year is a
damn stress year for me , i couldnt take it .

dont ask me anymore ;(

2009-06-16T11:15:00.003+08:00

Chong chaolim (:
That guy who make me feel irritated ,
since sec1 . disturbing me until sec4 still havent grow up .
From sec1 to sec4 , he alwasy disturb me when i'm moody .
which makes me smile all the time too (:
& i'll be pissed off and shout at him ,
chase him around the class (: hais .
but this year , he is not in my class .
I need his entertaining , make me laugh & not think negatively .
But i still miss him alot la , dont have him in class is bored !!!
why he go ite , i rather he promoted to sec5 man .
irritate me as usual , all his pervertic crap .
who can stand him , haha only me .

Dennis mak kai zhong (:
This guy is with chaolim baka hao de ,
alwasy disturb me & cherrie .
haha , last time me & cherrie was quite close with dennis .
everytime conference talk talk de , tak crap .
anyways , he 's a good friend , is good to trust him .
cos he will help to keep secrets & give advice (:
In class everytime with chaolim go crazy , miss them alot alot D;
he is currently sam eite with chongchaolim .
haha , that day call dennis chatchat ; i'll call you soon yea .
COME BACK ASSUMPTION TO VISIT US HORRRRR !
I miss their crap .

Yesterday went watch movie with sherlynn & renwei ,
we watch ' DRAG ME TO HELL ' at jurong point .
i thought will see dao jiexiang but dont have , sian .
That renwei hor , scare me hor . sherlynn alsooo ;x
asshole , the couple was hugging & sherlynn acted so scared &
hug renwei neh . Laughs , renwei want anyhow her hor !
think i dontknow wor . I shouted alot times ,
cos the sound effect damn loud .
go eat mac with them & went home .
haha , i want watch again (:

2009-06-15T12:39:00.003+08:00

我能说出一千个一万个理由去爱你；
如果我变成回忆，
你也不会伤心。
Between us , the only topics we could talk is hello & bye ?
I dont want can , can you back to the past when there ' s
always something for us to talk about de .
I finally saw you , finally .
do you know how long i've been awaiting to see you .
You just say hello to me , i feel happy the entire day .

sorry , LeeJunJie .
i've choose this path & 'll do it .
when i really do it , please dont be sad .
because i know i'm gonna do so one day .
if i called you suddenly , please pick up .
I might be standing way up on top & shouting ,
why i have not done so , i couldnt find the day .
the pain , is just hurts tooo much .
i know you will be there for me , but ...
i cant take it anymore , my life sucks .
i dont wanna cry every night when i feel pain ,
hurt , sad .

Thanks Elisa for your advice ,
but no point . This is not what i wanted at all .
yo wont understand de ba .
Death ;
You wont care , you wont say anything .
forget it , i' shall become memories .
Lai sining , can you just jumped and get over it ?
Releasing your palm , taking a step forward .
Can i end it ?
All the pain , get out of my life .
say i'm silly , say i'm stupid , whatever .
i'm just willingly to die , for him .

2009-06-15T12:04:00.004+08:00

Didnt sleep for 7days ; Due to OLevel art .
I have not finish my coursework for art , been
going sch for 2 weeks already . today is the 3rd week ,
but i still have to go for 4th week tooo .
yesterday was damn tired , my eyes is closing .
but i force it to open cos i need to finish my art ,
stay at home , didnt go ahgong hse .
ben come find me at my hse downstair ! oh hor !
someone smoke neh , ah ben ar , naughty .
see , i good girl never smoke . he so bad bad (:
eat icecream & chatted , sibei sians , slack awhile .
i go home do art again .
currently now at art room , blogging & drawing (:
later mght be going jp meet sherlynn & renwei watch movie (:
haha , " drag me to hell " ! that wong tingfong la .
dontknow whre the hell is he man , ahah .
City harvest church ; 130609

Venness 吴建豪 singing &ｄａｎｃｉｎ　，ｈｉｇｈ　ｂｏｄｏｈ　．

milk , 牛奶 also singing & dancing , my idol (:

FIR , singing (: aggrh !

Closed - up pic of them , i so li hai cans .

Cherrie went with me , odilia , razzaaq & emily to church .
how surprisingly sia , i thought she wont go de loh .
anyways , took photo with my dearest bestie .
the church got this celebrity week thingy .
saw alot of 明星 neh , haha .
that cherrie , emily & odilia sabo me wor .
ohmytian , I SAW JIEXIANG ! he is shuai de loh .
cherrie go tell him i dont dare to msg him , ass that meimei .
make me so paiseh at there , wth .
mingwei come say hello to me ,
idk why , i feel damn extremely happy (:
although i know is xueting tell him to say hello to me de ;x
jiexiang say hello to me 3 times ! ;D
i'm like freaking happy , cherrie & odilia keep telling me to msg him .
Lol , you both veh good friend hor . say want help me .
make me soooooo , agrh . anyways , i finally msg Jx (:
should i go church this saturday ?
i can see Jx & mummyboy (:

I know i'm not young already to play with this ,
but it ' s been so long since i played this ballon thingy .
played during art lesson , ms siti said i siaoooo .

2009-06-12T10:22:00.005+08:00

Oh , stop torturing my life .

I see nothing , but death come upon me .
my life has fall apart , my life cant be happiness as before .
nothing can changed my thinking towards death ,
my family sucks , thanks to my aunt & mum .
Why do i have such a mother ?
this first thing i come home last night , i was doing my art .
& you scolded me . wtfffff , do you know i already had alot
of problems bugging me , you still reprimand me ,
i dont care la hor , i want do my art you like not happy .
saying that art has no future , you are ruining my life cans !
fuck off out of my life and i'll be extremely happy loh ,
4 more years , you wait only .
i'm sure i'll leave this damn house & you dont have a chance
to reprimand me anymore .
All my problems , i dontknow who to tell to .
i'm afraid to trust anymore now , no longer .
i guess only cherrie & SBF click nia .

Cherrie , I know you wont believe me
if i really wanted to end my life ,
but this time , i'm serious .
we ' ve been good friends for 5 yrs for now ,
you know what is my pattern de loh .
This time , everything is like torturing me ,
all things come at one go , idk how to solve each one by one .
In the past , I always tell you all my prolems
and your advice always keep me from being pessimistic .
but , now i'm really sick & tired already .
teach me how to trust ,
teach me how to forget that person ,
teach me how to be the happy person again .
without his presence , i feel nothing .
i feel i'm lacked of something , i'm tired .

my life is completely stressful this june holiday ,
other pple playing and enjoying their holiday ,
me eh ? stress abt art , him , family .
I've been staying awake for the past few days ,
didnt sleep every night cos must do my art .

Let me die for him ,
all the pain will be gone .
死了，痛的感觉会结束。

Mother & son .
Yesterday LeeJunJie follow my school art students to art school ,
so weird when i bring him inside assumption , haha .
reach art school & seen alot of art piece damn nice loh .
My dream school man (: ! i'm so gonna get in lohs .
after that went Bugis junction with junjie noh ,
as from the pic above , took from the reflection from mirror .
haha , he is so yellow cans . Mr 黄色先生 !
my art friend say he look likes a banana man (: haha .
went to causeway around 6plus , go library study until 8plus .
he took damn alot of chemistry books eh , sot diao liao .
went home at 9pm (: finding pple to pei me watch movie !!
i want watch ' Drag me to hell ' looks damn nice .
tingfong , where you where you .
pei me watch movie . contact me soon (:

I'm possessed by a mask ,
acting like doll .

2009-06-11T09:54:00.005+08:00

Smoking is bad for health .
I know it ' s bad to do so , but i'm just cant take it anymore .
i'm waiting .
i'm waiting .
i'm waiting .
i'm waiting .
i'm waiting .
i'm waiting .
i'm waiting .
For some life lasts a short while ,
but the memories it holds last forever .

why am i alive ? sacrifice for someone whom i love .
我傻傻的，等待奇迹出现。
no matter how long , how far . I'm willingly to sacrifice .
i stare at the mirror that reflect my life ,
am i willingly to do so ?
tonight going drinking with duyuan , ernest , waxsler .
gonna ask tingfong go but idk where is he .
wong tingfong ! call me !
everytime i said i wanted to jump , i just cant take a step forward .
because my mind is filled with Olevel , love , famly , friends .

now doing my art , in school .
so bored cans , later mdm siti bringing us to my dream school !
yeah ! i can see my course le .

Nanyang academy of fine arts ;
Diploma in Fashion Design
The Diploma in Fashion Design offers a well-rounded curriculum that will equip students with the necessary skills and knowledge to join the fashion industry. Students will study various aspects and processes, including fashion design, computerised techniques - Primavision and Gerber AccuMark, research methodologies and textile design. This course equips students with specialist skills that encourage innovation and enterprise.
Upon completion of the Diploma programmes, students will have the option to enroll in relevant Degree programmes conducted by NAFA in collaboration with overseas partner universities.

2009-06-10T10:59:00.006+08:00

I never give up hope .
Every night , crying under blanket .
hoping that things would get better ,
but i know no matter how much my tears has drown ,
mircale is not gonna happen , how i wish .
Being with you seems so xinfu for me ,
you has the ability to brings out the sun on my grayest day .
it just blow off in silent , didnt realised my dream has shattered .
stay strong man , why everything just reminds me of those cares .
sining , you said taking a step will end all the pain .
why didnt you do so last night ?
thanks to tingfong , he asked me out .
so i didnt intend to do it .
within this days , i would do it .
dont stop me , because my heart is determined to do so .
mw , thanks for everything (:
i know you wont be sad for me , you wont even shed a tears .
i regret for telling you , i regret for the impulsive act .
tell me you did not like another person ,
tonight will be going drinking , might with d and e .
After drinking , all the pain will be gone .
sining , bear with the pain . dont cry anymore (:
i need alot of courage , give me the strength .
i wont call mw when i'm stting at the edge ,
i know he no longer care my life and death .

没别的只想说对不起 , 对不起我真的爱你
不管你会怎么想你怎么说 , 也不会改变我的决定
你知道有时候感情事很难说 , 很难说爱人或朋友
从前到现在我真的感觉要 , 一想你我的心就发烧

想给你听我的心跳 , 想你知道我睡的不好
喝水想着你搭车想着你 , 合眼闭眼间出现的全是你
我猜不到你的表情 , 我等不到你的回应
不想难为你又不想放弃你 , 决定告诉你对不起对不起我爱你.

没别的只想说对不起 , 怎么样我都会珍惜
不管你会怎么讲你怎么做 , 也不会影响我的心情
你知道有时候男孩更难捉摸难捉摸 , 爱人或朋友
现在到永远我真会感觉要 , 一想你我的心就狂跳
我的模样记不记得牢 , 情人卡有没有收到
读书想着你, 听歌想着你, 大地和蓝天出现的全是你 ,
我才不管你的表情 , 我才不理你回不回应, 不想难为你又不想放弃你
决定告诉你对不起对不起我爱你

你听一听我的心跳, 你看一看我睡的不好
喝水想着你搭车想着你 , 合眼闭眼间出现的全是你
我猜不到你的表情我等不到你的回应 , 不想难为你又不想放弃你
决定告诉你对不起
对不起我爱你 (:

Ths song is super meaningful to shows my love for you (:

Tingfong - Gaybastard :p

Yesterday at night meet up with tingfong at Lot1 , he thinks he 's veh cute blowing that balloon wor . that was like how young since i played with that le . went home around 8plus , I DIDNT SLEEP THE WHOLE NIGHT ! I was busy drawing my art sketches , feel so tired . lucky got duyuan entertain me yea , msg until 3am , i think that pig fall asleep le . lol . talk to Dennis mak kai zhong on phone until veh late , almost whole night . he went Lot1 eat at 4am man ! He ' s crazy ! we talk about last year sec4 stuffs . he is like so fking happy he didnt go sec5 cos he ITE . Tingfong new lines - 你妈妈飞！ i was like arguing with him 你全家飞！

haha , tingfong , you think you veh cute ar . my turn my turn , 你妈妈 high !

2009-06-09T12:35:00.003+08:00

Be strong .
SGB , wong tingfong , where you .
contact me leis , i want go slack ):
I dont know why , my tears just keep falling .
i'm forcing a smile , feigning joy , ignoring the pain .
ever since what you told me , i'm too weak , i know .
why do you have to do this , you owe me an explanation .
i'm so sorry , i didnt know xueting would confront you .
i dontknow why am i saying sorry to you ,
when it is not even my fault .
I want alcohol , cigarette now .
just need to vent all my anger out ,
i dont deserve you , i know i'm not that good enough for you .
but afterall , you dont belongs to me in the first place .
studies , love , family , friends ,
taken over me . it s too tormenting for me ,
i couldnt find the answer to everything .
life is damn meaningless now cans ,
when i take one step towards , thats goes all my life .
whatever i do now , my mind just couldnt stop thinking .
I'll be waiting for a miracle to happen ,
he wouldnt care ! he wouldnt care about me le !
sining , get out of this reality because its hurts too much .
it 's just one step, but why am i hesitating .
jst one step , all your troubles will be gone in just one night .
This reality is not what i expected to be ,
i'm prepared to end it .

Sining , see you in heaven :/

If you want me to die for you ,
i'm willing to .
If you want me to do anything ,
I'm wiling to .

Just close your eyes , feel his presence
and take one step forward .

Memorable spot .

This place giving me too much memories ,

I went to the library yesterday , this corner

was the place we sat next to each other .

The 3rd time i meet you after i confessed my feelings ,

it holds alot meaning to me .

Even though , the time was just too short ,

it will forever carried a memories in my heart .

tell me , everything was perfect ..

I thought you wont hurt me ,

ily because i knew you 're the one .

I love you not because of who you are ,

but because of who i am when i'm with you .

No matter what , i'll never give up .

i'll remember you .

i will stay inside this dream , wont wake up .

痛一生的爱，

2009-06-09T11:36:00.019+08:00

i'm so guai doing art man (:

can you see my eyes is blue & green , LOL !

my art sketching (: A1 is my goal .

Hardcore Olevel art coursework (:

I'm gonna have everyday art man , so tired .

from 8am to 2 , 4 pm , i think i'll go crazy .

aziela keep me accompany this days , making me laugh .

because i dont even have the mood to do my art .

mdm siti jokes with us all the times ,

yesterday i say her " cher , you think you veh cute ar "

she say " ya , i am cute " , i was like laughin cans !

took alot of silly pics in school & art room, haha .

today mdm siti buy drinks for us today . ;D

since when she is so kind wor , haha .

she makes us so envy cans , cos she say her dearest husband

buy food for her . eyers , lol so mushy .

now using laptop & drawing , found my artist reference .

need chiong 8 boards , 8 painting for my olevel art

i think i'll go crazy loh ): ate yoghurt & strawberry milk ,

yesterday whole day was doing art .

few more weeks , shld i carry on wasting time ?

i need to get an A fo rmy art man ,

Nanyang acdacmy school of fine arts , here i come !

this thurs , teacher gonna bring us go art school .

i want see my course , DIPLOMA in Fashion design .

laughs , will be MIA for 3 weeks . due to chionging of coursework .

i dont have holidays man , tonight might not be sleeping .
need to do sketching , faint .

tml 8am to 4pm again art !

2009-06-07T17:15:00.005+08:00

Tell me why . thanks for making me cry alrights .

Crying and laughing .

you havent tell me the reason , what is your confusion . tell me please , i cant take it any longer . i'm currently laughing and crying at the same time ,

thinking i'm so silly , my heart had just drop from the highest level .

dying is in my mind now , emoing . Deep inside there is a love that seeps into her veins , she cries out , but no one hears . I cry until my eyelid close , feigning joy , and feeling pain . why do you have to like this ?!! odilia , i know you 're trying to make laugh now . but i dont think is funny . my mind is filled with what he said . tears keep rolling down my cheek , i dont want give up . why you tell me to find another guy , i dont want !

there 's nothing i can do , to make you see , what you meant to me . all the pain and tears i cried . i dont want to be real , please . save me , i couldnt take it anymore . my tears filled up my eyes . pulled myself together , you wanna know why i still like you . I believe you are those kind of guy that won't hurt me , i really like you alot , do you know !!?

This time , i never let go . One chance , please .

2009-06-07T14:31:00.009+08:00

I got JX number , wheeeeeeee (:

Odilia baked this for me (:

Reality .
I seen the moment of truth , fake or truth .
telling myself not to be so angry , remain silent .
but what my bestie say is right , if you cant take it anymore .
you got the rights to blow up man .
I 'll never forget the way you said ,
I'll never forget you're another person .
From this , at least i seen what they mean by , true colour .

Love , hope . LIFE .
She wishes - to see him .

But - only an empty longing .

All i could do was whisper , hoping he could somehow
hear me inside his heart .
No matter how utterly useless , like there ' s no reason to go on .

you gave me the hope to go on , one must remain strong & find the answer ,

And that reason to keep going .

When i say i dont want to talk ,
encourage me to open up .
when i say i just want to die ,
i'm saying i'm too afraid to go on .
when i say it 's hopeless ,
please know i'm tired of living .
when i say i wanna be alone ,
hold me until i stop crying .
when i say i'm fine ,
protect me .
when i say no one cares ,
show me that i'm wrong .

2009-06-06T18:34:00.003+08:00

I'm still at jereen house , lol .
Today wake up damn early & meet razzaaq at Lot1 .
went cathy , support Daryll for singapore idol !
alot of pple cans , then see 3 from assumption de also join .
we took photo with jasmine , the 2nd batch Singapore idol de top8 .
saw those contestant came out from the audition room ,
with a sad & disappointed face man .
so funny , see alot contestant with weird weird de clothing & hairdo .
fking funny cans , i saw Hady ! almost get to take pictures leis .
Daryll just told us tml then he gonna go for audition cos too many pple !
jereen so bored until we all keep struggling in eating popcorn!
haha , pei jereen go jurong point just to see book .
tian ar , jiu go back jereen house le . faint !
gonna go home tonight at 9pm (:

Anyways , thanks jiawei for your encouragement & advice .
I'll do my best for my OLevel & wont let anything else affect my studies .
my brother rocks man ! (: miss you , chat next time alrights (:

Shattered dream .
If you give me one chance to prove I really love you .
I would sing to you , & tell you I never let go .
Life is full of challenge ,
I won't pin much hope on you
because i know i'll fall .

I feel like hope is gone , I finally see the truth .

2009-06-05T23:48:00.004+08:00

betrayal .

I'm currently ton-ing at jereen hse with emily ,
so noisy , i can't stand it , her bro is damn fucking irritating cans .
Today went school & skip lessons after 10am ,
I seriously dont feel like going so told chemistry teacher
say i not feeling well loh .
Meet up with hillary at batok ..
Sentosa outing with hillary , xiaoxuan & Leung jiahui (:
been so long since i went out with them leis ,
took alot of silly pics yea , I GOT SUNBURNT nehs !
Emily meet me at 7pm & we rot until 8.30pm .
thought tingfong would be at cck control station ,
he blamed me say make him wait for 1hour ! how i know ar .
my phone no batt right , kuku neh , si GB !
tml morning going support daryll for spore idol audition ,
meeting razzaaq , afiq with emily & jereen 9am at Lot1 .
might not be sleeping tonight , jereen is beating her bro now .
haha , i want go out with my cherrie bestie (:
cherrie ;
maybe i should just remain silent .
maybe i should just dont care nothing happen at all ,
I dontknow who to trust now , no longer .
Can you teach me how to trust someone again ?
at least now , I finally realised that friends are NOT trustworthy .
I told myself ,
Sining , learn not to trust anyone le .
dont get trap alrigths , why are you so simple minded .
SBF , need your advice (:
Sometimes , I just miss all my working pples .

Tired & please fuck off my life .
I know you 're busy for Olevel ,
I know you must be stress and wont have time to chat .
I know i'm just being so silly .
I know no matter how hard i try to find topics to talk ,
i just couldnt do it .
Sometimes , I tries to pressed your number .
I hesitate whether i should call you , but i know
what you would say to me .

study .
study .
study .

Somebody just teach me how to study !
Sonebody teach me how to show lesser concerned about him .
But what I wont change for my life ,
To mummyboy, my love is true .

040609 ;

My working partner , amanda !
meet her at night at batok mac slack .
saw that guy , so shuai . tian ar !
see , i took her uniform photo . Hillgrove sec neh!

2009-06-03T16:31:00.002+08:00

I can't trust anyone now man , fuck .
Cherrie , save me .
only you understand me well , i'm stress .
call me tonight kkays , you didnt answer the phone neh .
Tremendous Love ;
Deep inside there is a love that seeps into her veins .
she cries out , but no one hears .
Love is everything it's cracked up to be .
it 's really worth fighting for , being brave for ,
risking everything for .
i'm very sorry for kept on saying i wont drink but break it again .

Just ended with a disappointed goodbye
on the phone with you .

2009-06-03T14:46:00.002+08:00

020609 ;
with tiff samuel alena odila go westmall ,
afternoon meet tingfong at Lot1 to watch MONSTER V.S ALIEN !
so funny cans the show , i keep telling tingfong
the cute look-alike hamster , sooo damncute .
haha , i know is lame but laughs .
i saw cherrie tan at Lot1 ! with parents .
she was in the same cinema as me watching same show .
so qiao cans , bu kui shi wo de bestie (:
i got tingfong latest short hair post ,
helmet without the string , he gonna go crazy if he see the pic .
at night meet emily & junjie , went amanda house .
i damn long never see her le , my working partner (:
i know she hates my msg tone last time , haha .
started talking abt it and took pics . I MISS AMANDA LEIS !

010609 ;
FINALLY OLEVEL CHINESE FINISH !
i'm very disappointed in myself , why cant i do well .
this is not my expectation i wanted .
A1 is no longer mine ! my mind when blank ,
when i stare at my olevel chinese , jitao want cry loh .
hais , i hope i get an A2 .
Meet emily & hillary at library find my art research .
got this 2 regent girls damn ass , wtfffff .

310509 ;
meet tingfong at westmall , laughs .
see the identical slipper , haha .
at first i dont want buy de loh , see him kelian .
hah , just joking ar SGB !
my hair is long till can tie hair , wheeeeeeee .
tingfong say not nice , ass .

300509 ;
meet jurong point with junjie , emily , odilia & razzaaq .
go see the jolin ' s autograph session . haha .
odilia & emily line up so long just to get the signature ,
what the hell loh . haha , but me , junjie & razzaaq
went sit at long john loh . ahahah !
took the photo got jolin neh , but so small .
Went batok slack with them , then at night
with emily go Lot1 slack awhile .
stand at the top of teh buliding , thinking .
shouting " i l y" ,
took alot of stupid pic , i want jump down !

290509 ;
I went meet sherlynn with junjie go jurong point ,
then they both keep saying each other . lol .
took mrt with sherlynn back ,
then at night meet gaston at cck , made him wait .
haha , then went underblock drank bacardi .
i think i'm abit drunk but i manage to get home myself .
took train with gaston , & he was like abit drunk also .
eat 4 chocolate share with that ass .
sorry , i didnt meant to drink .
i know even if i do smth stupid , you wont be sad .
Afterall , we're not related .

2009-05-22T14:38:00.004+08:00

Cant imagine the 34days i couldnt feel anything .

MIA .
will be chiong-ing for Olevel chinese .

Thanks to Tiffanie , Odilia , TingFong , Elisa ,
Sherlynn to scold back the spammers when
i didnt get to use com . he ' s just too humji , cant blame .
seriously , i dont wanna care about this stupid thing anymore .
mummyboy ; i got so much things to tell you .
I told myself , am i making the correct path .
Till now , i've been awaiting to see you .
one minute will do , i do all it takes to see you .
I feel a burden , i dontknow how to study for olevel .
I keep bearing with it , telling myself not to grieve .
no more shedding tears because of you ,
Lai sining , it doesnt matter if you keep wanna see him .
it wont do any help de .
you already seen the truth he told you ,
wake up from your mummyboy land & get your brain
in studying for Olevel ! its less than 10 days , buck up !
Just hoping to see you soon ,
but i wont pin my hope too high .
I know i'll fall .

sometimes , I believe in fate .

2009-05-22T14:06:00.003+08:00

220509 ; TODAY !
9 MORE DAYS TO O Level Chinese !?!!!
I dont have confident sia as i fail badly for my midyear ;
cos didnt study as much . my art got 67 nia ,
chinese 78 . that was damn lan cans ! idk la .
flunk every subjects , i feel so dumb & i'm too stupid la .
i'm not as clever as mummyboy sia ,
he like so clever & i'm like so dumb .
i think i'm dont have the quality to like him loh .
left 9 more days , after this nine days .
it will determined my life already .
i'm super scared i couldnt pass , but i'm telling myself .
i need to chiong A1 no matter what for chinese !
after june holiday , my art coursework has to pass up .
i not yet done , i super dk what to do .
hopeless girl .

210509 ; thursday
went watch Night At The Museum at Lot1 ,
with tingfong , it was a last minute decision .
cos we go ' buy ' sweets & chocolate ma .
haha , the show super funny man ,
everyone must go watch it man , i saw this guy .
he look totally like benjamin hum , but is not him .
i think he ' s from durnean sec , shuai sia .
finish show ard 6.30pm then saw LeeJunJie .
he saw us but didnt wave sia . kuku ;x
i saw lynette again . miss her alot (:

TINGFONG EXTRA BEHIND !

200509 ; wednesday
happy 17th birthday to odilia tan (:
i'm so sorry that i didnt go for the sentosa .
was sick yea , went see doctor with cherrie .
tingfong & emily came meet us , went cck polyclinic
see doctor . saw lynette with her bf , not bad hor .
went Lot1 with cherrie , tingfong & emily at kfc eat .
tingfong & emily keep wearing the mask ,
pple tot they got swine flu sia . in mrt fking xiasuey sia .
saw chaysen sia , xia dao loh ;x still so short .
went with emily & tingfong meet junjie , darren & xueting
go eat 18chef , emily want see her ahboy .
got this guy fking shuai cans at one of the shop , faint ,
went home with tingfong eariler ,
came out at 8plus meet tingfong go Lot1 slack .

2009-05-18T18:07:00.000+08:00

Happy 16th birthday to LeeJunJie , son (:

2009-05-18T16:57:00.005+08:00

my heels is damn high ,
ohmytian .

I saw my idol , jiro wang (:
with his signature (: wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee .

see your silly and dead eyes (;
stop drinking .

160509 ; saturday .
Happy birthday to Odilia & LeeJunJie (:
finally get to go KBOX (:
cineleisure de kbox , my heels hurts man .
Meet up with junjie , emily , odilia , tiffanie & desiree .
si cherrie , tingfong & kaihong never go ! assssssss .
we sing alot then takes alot pics too (:
after that went simei meet tingfong ,
eat at 18 chef again , cos emily want see her ahboy .
lol , tingfong keep says he want drink alcohol .
i know you drank during chalet right .
ass leis you , haiyooooooo .
stop being like this , later pple say is i buy let you drink one .
become my fault liao loh , no more drinking for you kkays !
Be guai la , SGB ! (:
then went back cck with junjie & emily .
passed daryll & jevin their present at jevin ' s hse .
junliang & alan all there , laughs . so paiseh sia .
the atmosphere so weird , faint .
i gave condoms as a present to javin becos he ' s finally 16 yrs old !
Happy 16th birthday to jevin (:
so many pple birthday , i going broke soon ):

2009-05-18T15:47:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry for calling you so suddenly .
i'm just freaking stress so i feel like drinking .
i know i shouldnt do that , you wont be angry right .
i cried , remembering all the things .
and i finally knows the truth .
just that xueting dont wanna tell me .
i know , forget it man . i'm just to into already .

150509 ;
junjie birthday celebration with SBF (:
but i didnt go . went late .
so meet junjie , xueting & tingfong at Lot1 .
junjie treat pizzahut wor , haha .
took alot of silly photos (:
meet emily after tat then me & tingfong brought alcohol .
and we both went drunk at Lot1 (:
i see tingfong cried , i began to cry .
i first time see tingfong likethis , dont sad anymore k .
there's is better girls out there de (:
anything can tell me , i'll be your listening ear .
cos you my working best partner ;D

130509 ;
went out jurong point with tingfong pei me buy
daryll present then took mrt to jurong east .
then went tampines mall again .
got PASA MALAM ! haha , those games like fun leis .
I super miss my childhood life (:
we earn $100.70 (: ahha , tingfong knows m meaning yea ?
go home ard 9plus , we say want cab down gombah then run lo .
in the end never ! sians . he say i'm SPB !?!!
you neh , si tingfong . you SGB la .

gaybastard (: you're confirm born NOT CUTE okay !

Happy 18th birthday to Daryll ! bodoh !

been missing too long , and heart ache .
Dont you know i'm waiting for you to come down ,
i just wish to see you .
waiting for your presence , why cant you come down to
study with us . i'm in a lost , forget it .

120509 ;
i meet up emily go yewmei condo and study .
i thought mummyboy will come down ,
in the end he did not .
so i slack with emily at his condo downstair keep taking pics .
went until like 9plus , went home .

110509 ;
sibei bored , meet xueting with emily & junjie .
pei emily go 18 chef eat , see her ' ahboy " lei .
haha ,went to tampines also .
meet sherlynn & her bf come entertain me . laughs .

090509 ;
went to cousin house & waited for tingfong & junjie .
he is super cute right , my son neh .
haha . anyways , went meet tingfong & junjie
at Lot1 to study and played !

2009-05-09T09:48:00.002+08:00

went sheeeeesha with tiffy & weide .
lol , super funny. first timer keep coughing . haha .
haha , took pic with her alot .
haha , joel & his two ite friends came .
went back tiff house at 7plus .
meet tingfong & junjie & emily at gombah mac .
saw yanting & yuzhuang at gombah mac sia .
emily say want go xiao gui lin walk walk .
in the end , we climb from the wall & sneak into a condo at 10.30pm !
how silly is that , i almost fell cans .
cos forget put contact lens . cant let pple see us .
haha , we just sneak in for 15mins & climb out from the same position !
sian , cant go out from the front door .
so stupid loh , i climb up from the wall & jump down ,
hurt my legs sia .
junjie, tingfong & emily say want come my house .
but cant , so they sat outside my house the corridor door there .
talk talk talk until so lonng ,
& realised is 12.10am le ! they went back .
i think they walk home ba .
noow going jurong point with odilia ,
later going mac study then go Lot1 find tingfong .
haha , spammer , you want find wo trouble ,
later come down lot1 wor .
i'm very sure you 'll be dead alrights ,
i'm sure you confirm cry to your mama !

2009-05-09T09:33:00.002+08:00

TINGFONG PICS (:

2009-05-08T14:17:00.003+08:00

nabei pua cb , you where bu shuang .
steady de , come down find wo okay .
you come assumption english school find wo okay !
if not , come down lot1 hor .
you got no rights to insult my friends alright .
you veh big mey ? piece of shit alrights .
you also dont dare say out your damn name .
still say kaopei wo , you dont have a mother or father isit .
nobody teach you not to be rude ,
iops , i forgotten you're just a dog who is just seeking attention right .
lets begin the game alrights ,
you want play .
i play with you .

go drink your dog mother milk la .
i bet son of a biyth is humji man !

2009-05-08T12:07:00.002+08:00

070509 thurs ;
TINGFONG ASK ME OUT GO STUDY !
is such a mircale cans , haha .
haha , we study at lot1 mac . junjie & emily came .
i keep talking to tingfong & writing some boliao thingy ,
sians , cant post the pictures . shall post it next time .
haha , TINGFONG IS BORN , NOT CUTE !
tingfong ;
i'm so glad you finally asked us out eh .
haha , see you tonights alrights (:
study tonight . haha (:

SINING says tingfong is born , NOT CUTE !

2009-05-06T19:56:00.001+08:00

spammer ;
I dont give a fucking damn about whether you come from teck whye or whatsoever la hor .
At least I have the chance to take O levels.
From the way I look at your spamming, I can tell that you don't even qualify for O's.
Please la, xiao hai zi. Your mother never teach you manners is it?
Must need this jie jie and her friends to come and scold you huh?
KNN. It's not that I'm afraid of you, but I'm matured enough to not bother about you.
Why should i come and find you leh? You also not my mother. __
I dont even listen to my own mum, not to say your instructions.
Go and be a good person at your Sri Lanka la.
Not happy right? Come and find us at AES. Wu ji karr karr lai.
You don't come, than is your problem le.
Call me humji for not finding you or whatsoever, just so you know, FUCK YOU la.

BTW, you want my address sibo?
Can.. YOUR MOTHER's HOUSE. hahahahaha! :D

2009-05-06T19:53:00.002+08:00

040509 monday ;

Study with tiffy , odilia , emily & junjie .

went junjie house at night with emily .

study awhile , went find junliang at 10pm

at his house downstair .

chat chat then i saw alot of cockroach man !

I took his slipper to smack it then the slipper

broke . i'm super sorry that i broke your slipper .

haha , but he walk home with a limp !

thats the most stupidest part sia .

he keep saying me man , haha .

i scratch his hand then got scar , haha .

walk to bustop & realised no more bus le .

took cab home , all lai junliang ' s fault la !509 tuesday ;
study again at mac with junjie they all .

At night i go find junliang again .

lol , i called him to bring me some food

but he say dont have .

i waited at tilll like 8pm , he finally come down man .

He bring donut for me , wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee .

lucky suan ta got heart bring down for me ,

lol , started talk abt the past thingy again .

faint , i was shocked man .

Suddenly , got this uncle standing behind us & took photo

at me and junliang . then i realized is Junliang ' s father .

scare me sia , i was like called ' uncle " . . .

haha , i ask junliang why his father took that stupid pic .

he say to show his mum , wtfffff .

haha , my tragus stud come out , fking pain cans .
he helped me put in . hah a, thanks ar laijunliang (:
see the picture ontop , i write Laijunliang = Mei liang xin .
he say is shan liang de liang . wtffff man .
haha , you gen ben jiu shi heartless de lohs .
went home at 9pm .

today chiong art , not gonna sleep tonight .

TINGFONG SAID :
ok... th rest is dedicated to Sining.
sining im really sorry for nort being able to acc you home ytd.
but i can tell u tht i didnt change a single bit.
and even if i did it might not be becos of a certain someone.
im jus really furious when u all say tht i im bias thruwards her .
i don see th link at all .
maybe at tht time she ask me out first thn u ask so i told u im bz?
but since it has pass i guess is alright thnn..
guess tht we cant return back to th normal times
since we alrdy had so much conflicts now.
i might skip th chalet cause i think tht it will bring more troubles thn fun.
i dont want everyone to quarrel on tht day and it will be meaningless.
i guess it is better for u guys to go w/o me. anw ur still my best friend and i miss th times whreby we walk back to home tgther.
takecare and hope u can be w/ th one you like too.

TINGFONG ;
i didnt blame you for not accompany me home that day .
you should know why i said this .
is like you have become more and more like ..
idk khow to say . you just change super alot that
i cant describe already .
we're not being bias , is so ming xian liao cans .
NO ! you cant skip the chalet , you must go .
i got alot alot things to tell you de loh ,
like last time eh .
you just didnt realised you changed ,
just takecare of yourself okay ,
no matter what happen , dont change to bad .
dont get into any troubles please .
dont join gang or whatsoever alrights ..
i just want you to be the normal one i know cans le .
dont smoke , just dont okay .
takecare partner (:

2009-05-06T19:42:00.006+08:00

monday (:

2009-05-03T21:37:00.003+08:00

I'm waiting along the train track ,
waiting for your presence to appear right infront of me .
thinking of all the possibility that you might message me .
why am i crying , why am i crying .
If i fall from there , what will happen .
I wanna stand with you on the mountain ,
I wanna stay with you by the sea .
I' be your wish , I ' be your hope .
I' be your love , I' be your fantasy .
I ' feel like giving up in all the things i do ,
I just dont have the potential to wait for you .
whatever i do , nobody like it .
whatever i do , i just want to see you happy .
Even though you wont accept ,
I still would wanna continue this journey ,
alone .
Because I believe you cares for me .
& this is what you told me .
but is the only thing that makes me happy .

my aunt sucks .
from tomorrow onwards , i wont step into ahgong hse .
i will go back straight home .
you ownself couldn't take care hao ahgong ,
jiu dont vent all the anger on me .
I did study , you dont believe .
thats your goddamn fking problem .
whatever i do , you not happy .
you're not even my damn mother .
you said if i fail my mid year ,
you will confiscate my phone , you got no rights alright .
thats my own hard earned money , i fking hate you alot .
i want my aunt vanish , please .
when i'm old enough , i'll leave .
you wait only , next year when i'm 18 .
dont stress me up when i'm already so damn stress !